>>80
Don't sound so hopeless! It's true you'll never meet Youmu in person, but there are plenty of ways to be close to her without ever needing to meet her - you can play against (or as) her in the Touhou games themselves, or collect images of her from the 'boorus, or read doujin involving her, or even get a dakimakura.

Or you could kidnap a young Japanese girl, dye her hair grey, dress her as Youmu, and keep her locked up in your house. The choice is yours.