18, virgin.

I once had the chance when I was 15 with this beautiful girl, we had been friends for quite some time and I really liked her, but when she started coming on to me I got scared of ruining our friendship so I refused her, and then I did something I still can't figure out why. I told her we shouldn't see each other anymore.

Ever since then I've had this feeling I don't deserve anybody else, I still feel that way, I'm sure she got really hurt as well so I cant really forgive myself.