Forgetting someone (66)

21 Name: Secret Admirer : 2006-02-06 07:08 ID:shbUHx+G

well...believing in myself didn't work. Tried asking her out for a Valentine's day dinner was rejected. Just can't see me as anything other than a "bestest" friend _| ̄|о

I was planning to give this anime plushie to her too. I guess it's not like in the tv shows and movies where effort means something huh? If only it was...There's nothing more to put my effort into anymore...nothing that I wouldn't do for her normally anyways. As the mark for bestest friend is so high, there's nothing I could do to outdo myself into potential boyfriend. And in many ways i've been fighting for the love for a good 2-3 years now. the fight seems more and more hopeless T_T

>>19 pretending she was dead? I know I sound stupid saying this, but I don't think I could do that. Trying to not talk to her and cut her out of my life was hard enough. I don't think i could convince myself she's dead knowing well she isn't hehe. concious double think is hard for me. orz

In a month i'll have loved her for nearly half my life. and in the comming years, it'll soon be that I've loved her for more than half my life.

She can never love me and I'll love her for the rest of my life.

well, so I guess I'm back to stage one again...any ideas anyone? :(

I think of all the Valentine Days i've had, this has to be the worst.

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