well my ex fucked this other guy at some party while i was away for the week, and then after sleeping with me again a few days after decided that i wasnt fun anymore and wanted to just be 'friends'.

i found out about this guy a month or so later when i finally talked it out of her. i pretty much lost it after i found out, and ended up dropping out of uni. i also dissed a lot of my friends to be with her, so even now 2 years later i really dont have any close friends like i used to.

i have a real job now, and a pretty secure future, but i really dont give a fuck. i can feel myself growing more cold and bitter as each day passes. my parents are going to kick me out soon, as im now 21, and it looks like im just going to move into a flat by myself. i can barely make new friends, let alone talk to girls.

im afraid that ill wake up tomorrow 50 years old and ready to die