I'm fucking horny, and need a girl to love. Only for some intimacy, not a relationship. I'm actually a virgin, but I don't want to do this to just lose my virginity.
I fail at being socialable, I'm afraid to be rejected, since I've had some encounters with mean girls. I'm not sure how to cope with this. Yes I masturbate to porn, but I just feel sometimes that I want some intimacy, and thus I need some advice what I should do.
I belive that being out alot helps you to develop your social sides, but I only have the option to go out by myself, which isn't fun, and makes me a bit unsecure about meeting girls and people. Because I can be a bit paranoid about it, that I belive that people are looking at me in contempt.
I think I'm going nuts, but I only want some intimacy. But I don't have the confidence to help myself sometimes. Even though I can handle being in the public, but then just doing regular thing as shopping food or similar
I just wanna feel some intimacy.
And I have no idea how to get in touch with girls on the internet, even though I know some sites that offer it. I'm reluctant since it probably is full of high school girls.
So I don't know what to do.
Please help me with how to get in touch with girls as horny as me, or at least who feels an urge for intimacy.