I've been waiting.... (781)

1 Name: benson_2009 : 2006-03-08 06:46 ID:rBmL8F/W

I'm usualy just a lurker around the board, but today i have a story... recently i been posting about long distance relationship because I really like this girl that lives in japan. but i live in australia so its really hard if i want to confess to her.. well this is how it all started...

Around 2005 April, i was picked on by some people at school because of my hobby, which is movie making. I'm really like a movie otaku, i love watching movies thats why my dream is to become a film director. most of the girls i knew, i told them about my hobby and they would all ne like "isn't that like really immature??" and later on wont ever talk to me.. it was around November when i was on a japanese pen pal website where i met the japanese girl, her name was Aya. we started emailing each other talking about school and life style ect. then i asked her if she used skype and she said she uses it so we added each other. we started talking in skype, (to those who doesn't know its like msn but you use microphone to talk). for the first time, i told her i'm into film making... she unlike the other girls was actualy intrested in it.. she asked me when can i show her my movie.

we talked almost everyday, mostly for 2 hours and we can always talk about anything like movies, anime, school, music ect.. then one night... we talked for 6 hours! i only had 2 hour sleep because i had to wake up for tennis lessons >"< we got more close after that. for christmas i bought her a bracelet and air mailed it to her, she liked it alot. one day i got her email but was really surprised... usualy at the end of the email she would just write "from Aya" but this time she wrote "Love from Aya". i had this feeling when i saw it. after that, i didn't hear from her for 2 weeks and then one night i got her email asking when can i talk to her... but after that... I've waited for a month and stil counting on... I emailed her before saying i have something to tell her because i planned to confess to her next time we talk.. but now i dont think i can do it because i reckon its highly likely i may get rejected since we are so far away _| ̄|○" the feeling with this girl is different from all the other girls i liked. should i confess or not??

732 Name: 映画男 : 2011-10-17 06:26 ID:dScoQ3Rp

sorry for such a long delay, ive been so busy the last month that i barely slept. anyway to continue my story.....

thing were going well for my new life in the new college, it wasn't in till one day i was on the phone with my ex, i asked her if shes going out with anyone right now and she said she was. i asked her who it was and she said it was the guy i saw her flirting on Facebook when i was in Australia who apparently she told me back then was only a good friend and that they would never date. at first i was surprised, but when i thought about it more, the more angry i got. i started arguing with her on the phone, she felt guilty cos i said basically she cheated on me for the guy. i didnt sleep that night, had another panic attack and kept screaming, i dont know why but the pain was so big i just wanted to scream out loud. my best friend came to my house to see me after he heard me screaming on the phone, to be honest when i look back at it now, i really looked like some fucked up psycho. i didn't sleep for about 2-3 days, i showed up at school all depressed looking and people noticed i was different. there was this girl in my class (lets call her V) who heard about me and my ex, i was talking on the phone to her about it, after i told her she suddenly said shes gonna pray for me. she just started praying for me on the phone and i was touched. V said if there was anything in my mind i can always go talk to her, she even gave me a birthday card with two full page writing saying how im a really nice guy and thank you for always telling her things about college so she can stop thinking about some bad stuff and that shes always here for me. when i read the last part it suddenly reminded me of lyss.... i dont know why. i started having little interest in V since she did some pretty nice things for me when i was going through a rough time. V suddenly began to change a during the semester, she started being more quiet and not really talktive, everyone knew something was up. there was one class where she suddenly left the classroom, when i asked i found out she want to the train station and went back home, i started to get worried.
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733 Name: 映画男 : 2011-10-17 06:56 ID:dScoQ3Rp

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everyone thought it was strange that V suddenly went home in the middle of the class, people were saying things like maybe shes got too much pressure from school work which is a possible situation. i wanted to do something to cheer her up so i came up with an idea to make a video for her, told everyone to record maybe 1-2 minutes of them selves talking giving some encouragement to V. during this time another girl (lets call her N) was pretty good friends with me, everyone was always curious if we were going out but i said we werent. there was one time when we were all having lunch outside, N said she wanted to see the new harry potter movie and asked if i wanna watch with her, i thought there was gonna be other people but apparently it was just me and her. we left lunch pretty awkward cos everyone was saying "oh where you guys going!" and it made us look like we were secretly going on a date or something. me and N became pretty close friends for a while.

on our school Christmas event, V was a lot better after i gave her a christmas gift and a card that i took a whole night to write (i suck at writing chinese), i even uploaded a song i wanted to give her on youtube on christmas day when i was at home. things were back to normal again, New Years Eve was coming. a lot of my classmates came to my place for New Years Eve since i live on the 13th floor apartment and can see the 101 fireworks for new years. there was two girls that i got familiar with that night (lets call her J and C), J and C are good friends in another class, i invited them for new years thinking its good to meet some new people. J seemed to follow me around that night and N would look jealous cos i took a photo of N looking at us with a kinda no emotional face. i was taking pictures with a very good friend of mine thats me and her are like sister and brothers, J saw us taking photos and suddenly came in the middle between us, my friend left and it was only me and J in my room taking pictures on my bed (yes it sounds kinda wrong but nothing happened).
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734 Name: 映画男 : 2011-10-17 07:14 ID:dScoQ3Rp

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ever since new years eve, J would always talk to me on msn and even msged me once saying "how come you werent on msn to annoy me last night? did you block me? :(" at the time V was a lot normal so i wasnt so worried anymore, i started talking to C as well and she wanted me to help her with english. it was winter break, i was planning on filming my first Music Video that i was gonna upload to youtube. during the winter break, me and C became good friends as well, c wanted to get me and J together cos she kept saying we look good together, J was a cute girl so i said i didnt mind. J would come from hometown which was about an hour by train to taipei city to come visit me, she kept saying she wants to practice english with me but we never end up doing any english. most of my winter break i was filming my MV, there was one night i was talking to J on the phone, saying ill take her to a all you can eat cake shop cos they got nice cakes there. she called me later at 3am saying she didnt want to eat cake cos it'll make her fat and i said to her "so you called me at 3am saying you dont wanna eat cake?" and she started laughing with her friend who was staying at her place. thing with J was going pretty good. During one visit when she and C came to my place, she said her hands were cold and i said i got warm hands, and suddenly i was holding her hand for about 2 minutes, C looked in shock and so did my other friend. we just stood there holding and didnt say anything, when we went to dinner J would always look at me smiley which made me pretty nervous. i managed to finish my MV and had it released on feb 17th when my 2nd semester started.
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735 Name: HaloUTD08 : 2011-10-24 22:15 ID:8r14Rvpg

Oh no...what happens next?!!

736 Name: kao : 2012-03-02 11:56 ID:dKvUdRG0

737 Name: Secret Admirer : 2012-06-11 17:38 ID:sErv7edE

wonder where he went?

738 Name: 映画男 : 2012-07-15 19:27 ID:1mXBN1xN

im sorry i disappeared for so long

its been such a busy and hectic life, its like a never ending drama

i've been looking back at a lot of stuff recently, 4ch, lyss, manda, my ex

its 3:19AM in taiwan, weather is crazily hot, i'll try and finish up my story that i left behind... theres so much to fill up D:

again sorry for disappearing!! im currently on summer break, been doing some street performances and other performances around taipei, i'm currently working on a EP that im trying to release end of this year so been really busy since i last left off, plus im still in college.

anyway i'll find some time to post up where i left off. PEACE~

739 Name: HaloUTD08 : 2012-07-17 17:21 ID:sErv7edE

HE'S BACK!! (I hope...)

740 Name: Secret Admirer : 2012-09-12 06:05 ID:CmSbn7xk

Horoscope have known.
The partner whom you need is seen in horoscope.

http://itunes.apple.com/en/app/id415834083?mt=8

horoscope JIKU site
http://www.horoscope-jiku.com/

741 Name: 映画男 : 2013-04-16 11:20 ID:EnYU3GUA

honestly i feel bad that when i said im gonna find time finishing up the story, i never got the chance :((

i left too much gaps in between that i wasnt able to finish the story

i was having a chat today with someone from this thread which is why i checked back, im pretty sure most of you have forgotten about this place XD

im gonna do a quick catchup on where i left!
*2011
-after i release my MV on youtube, people at school made rumours that i liked both C and J, it got awkward and we stopped talking
-V went into some depression mode and eventually left school, i was pretty sad about it but we still kept contact

  • V wanted to go to Australia during my summer break to do working holiday, my dad agreed for her to come stay at my place in Gold Coast.
  • V, her best friend and her sister came to Gold coast, at the time we were pretty close cos we were talking on the phone alot.
  • things were going well with V, i took her to alot of places and she seemed pretty happy.
  • A family friends daughter "kejo" found my facebook through the Music video and started chatting to me. when i was 13 her mum made a joke saying im engaged to her daughter since both parents agreed. obviously they were not serious.
  • one night, V said she never got drunk before and wanted to get drunk, my dad gave her a drink and she got drunk.

-she went kinda psycho after getting drunk, started crying and screaming
-cos i was a little tipsy, i had a fight with my dad
-V kinda knows i like her, cos i looked after her the whole night when she was drunk and she even held my hand that night.
-V rejected me before she went back to taiwan, saying i wasnt her type.
-Eventually i found out V just wanted to use me to get popular cos she knows im doing music and i know producers.
-me and kejo been whatsapp-ing each other a lot and been on good terms

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742 Name: 映画男 : 2013-04-16 11:34 ID:EnYU3GUA

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-before i left australia, my ex had been calling me through international calls because she had a fight with her bf. she called me twice crying and said she wanted to meet up with me when i come back.

  • I stopped talking to V cos she tried to go for all my guy friends and even went after one of our classmates bf. i was pretty disappointed and didnt really want to talk to her, even till now we never talked.

-me and kejo was app-ing each other every day, it went pretty nice. she even got me a gift from beijing when she went to visit.
-she suddenly wanted to talk to me so one night we skyped for about 2 and a half hours.
-Kejo and her sister came to visit taipei cos her sister bf lives in taipei, we met up for a movie and had dinner, it went pretty well cept she found me a little quiet at the start
-after the dinner, kejo asked me to the zoo on the next day, it was like a triple date as the other 4 people were couples.

  • Kejo got me a necklace thing and said it was for goodluck.
  • I met up with my ex for lunch one day, she said she realize i was pretty nice to her which i could tell she was hinting she wanted to get back together. but for me i didnt want to get back cos i know shes just gonna do the same thing over again.
  • Kejo was worried when i met up with my gf , said shes afraid i might get emotional if i see my ex, i told her not to worry

-the next 3 months, me and kejo talk to each other everyday, i even went to visit her in kaoshiong for 3 days and stayed at her place.
-she was very nervous when i was coming down and always asked "what if you see me and have a different opinion on me." i told her not to worry
-Kejo revealed to me that she broke up with her last bf two months before we started talking, shes still not over her ex as they went out for 2 years.

  • I tried many ways for get to get over her bf, on her 20th birthday i made a video and song and uploaded to youtube, she was very touched.
  • the video was called "169" the no. represents how many days i've known kejo since she first started talking to me on fb

-she and her sister came to visit taipei in december, they both stayed at my place

  • kejo wanted to go clubbing and said without a table she wont go, so i pulled some strings and got a table in a club.

-that night in the club i spent around 21k NTS, kejo seemed to have a good night and i threw up 6 times.
-i took a photo that night of me and her and uploaded on facebook tagging her
-the next day, i saw the tag disappeared on her facebook and asked her sister about it.
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743 Name: 映画男 : 2013-04-16 11:54 ID:EnYU3GUA

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-apparently Kejo took the tag off cos she didnt want her friends to think after just breaking up not long ago, shes with another guy.
-Kejo told her sister before that she thinks im suitable to be the LAST bf, and said we are too far apart as im in taipei and shes in kaoshiong.
-i told my friends about the "LAST BF" thing, most of them said shes just using me as backup

  • two days after the club night, her sister told me that kejo thinks im a really nice guy but just wont work out, since shes still attached to her ex bf.
  • i was devastated as i take time to really put feelings in someone cos i avoid getting hurt. i found out she really was just using me as a backup cos i was nice to her.
  • I started clubbing a lot for the last 3 months, met a lot of random girls at club.
  • i wanted to find something to distract me from kejo so i was a little addicted to clubbing back then.

-i lost motivation to write music, started helping a friend of mine doing hip hop music instead.
- i met a few girls who only wanted to get close to me cos of my good family background. i started to learn how to see what peoples motivation is.

  • i met a girl called ''mia", she was nice and friendly, i started talking to her a lot.

-mia wanted to find a place near me cos she said its near her school for her masters as she was about to graduate.
-i went on a date with her once, we went to see a movie
-before we saw our movie, i checked in on facebook. after the movie i was gonna send her home but a guy suddenly appeared as we were about to enter the Metro station.

  • the guy turned out to be her ex bf who still wants to get back with her, he came up to us and kept saying "why didnt you pick up your phone" and told me "excuse me, sorry"

-mia told me his gonna leave with him cos she was afraid her ex bf was going to punch me, he seemed pretty tensed up especially with his voice.

  • i was kinda shocked and thought if i should start a fight with him, i thought since we were in a public place and there was security guards all over the place, thought it was smart not to do something rational.

-Mia kept apologising for not telling me and said her ex bf had been stalking her.
-Me and Mia started talking on the phone and sometimes she would even call me, she even cared about my health cos i have high blood pressure.
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744 Name: 映画男 : 2013-04-16 12:06 ID:EnYU3GUA

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  • I found out there is a guy thats been chasing Mia for the last year and a half, i saw pictures of them going out one on one on fb

-there was one night she suddenly went out around 1am, said the guy who had been chasing her for a year and half had been telling people her private life, im thinking "are you hiding something?"

  • one night i saw them checking in at a night market around 3am, i whats app her and it shown that she read my msgs but no reply.
  • next day she said she left her phone at the guys place, im thinking why the fuck would you be at a guys place around 3-4am.

-i called her the next day and a guy picked up, mia called me back saying she was in the bathroom and shes out with friends, but i know the guy who picked up is the same guy who is chasing her for a year and a half.

  • that night i saw a picture of mia at the guys place cooking dinner, im thinking you must be dating him or something, i pretend to act like i dont know and called her and said "ohh did you get a bf? i saw pictures of you and a guy" , she refused to answer me
  • Mia already found a house near my place, one metro station apart, but i found out that she actually started dating the guy who was chasing her and he lived one metro station away from me as well.
  • i found out that Mia was just using me to help her find a house, i was sad but wasnt too sad, that night i went to find my music buddies and we just made music till 6am. i felt better the next day.

-During the Mia situation, sometimes i couldnt sleep and felt pretty depressed around 4am, i kinda missed the times i talked with kejo as kejo was sort off avoiding me back then.
-Kejo said i ruined our friendship when i started clubbing alot and said i changed into a player. said she liked the older me.
-eventually i found out kejos REAL personality, shes actually a party freak, loves to club and have guys dance around her. apparently she was pissed off at the 21k night because i avoided some guys dance around her and people thought she was my gf so she got pissed. said i kicked off some hot guys that was gonna come dance with her.

  • I was really disappointed about how kejo REALLY was, thought i should take time and not go for anyone, while at the time i was trying to find my self back with the music motivation. i gradually stopped clubbing.

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745 Name: 映画男 : 2013-04-16 12:24 ID:EnYU3GUA

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-during my break, the last 3-4 months i finally completed my next song called "everytime" which im going to release as a single.
-one night i was bored and started talking to this girl called "miya", she was very friendly and nice.
-sometimes i would start conversations with Miya on facebook, shes also from the same school as me.

  • I lent Miya my laptop to choose some classes, that was when we really first met and talked.
  • Miya was very friendly and nice to me, she often ask if theres anything she can help me with whenever i was having troubles.
  • me and Miya started using LINE, she even added her friends in and had a three way convo.

-i would ask miya out to karaoke or movies but we always had friends with us.

  • one day i got two big bang tickets and didnt know who to ask, i asked if Miya would like to go see the concert with me and she agreed.
  • Big bang concert was the first time we went out one on one, or our first date.
  • After the big bang concert, Miya seemed to have a good impression on me

-one night i saw Miya's status was really emo and she shut her phone off. I used "wechat" (its an app you send voice msgs) and randomly sang songs to cheer her up.

  • Miya was touched from the msgs and said she was really happy when she heard it. Miya began to rely on me and i would help her out
  • We started talking on the phone one night for almost 3 hours, we even agreed to go out the next day for lunch with one of my best friends.

the next day after lunch, my best friend left and it was just me and her, this was our 2nd date. we walked around taipei 101.
-that night, Miya's friend msgsed me asking if i like her, at the time i had some feelings towards her but didnt want to rush things incase i get hurt or disappointed again.
-her friend told me that Miya has feelings towards me, i was happy when i heard it.

on our 3rd date, i asked her to the zoo, after the zoo i took her to a riverside park, i wrote a song to her. she was really touched when she heard the song and im pretty sure she was crying cos she refused to look at me in the face XD since i haven't dated for the last 3 years (this happened near the end of 2012) i was really nervous when i was confessing, eventually i confessed and asked her to be my girlfriend, she quickly replied "OK!" and we were officially in a relationship :) shes my official 2nd girlfriend ever since the first one cheated on me, and im her first bf so shes still learning a lot from me :D we've been going out for 5 months, there has been ups and downs but i have to say im really happy with her and im glad i finally found someone who truly likes who i am.

i guess i can finally end this thread :P the last 3 years had truly been a roller coaster ride from me but i learned so much from those experience. i dont hate the girls who use me or cheated my feelings, i thank them fro the experience because those events made me stronger and too who i am right now.

whoever is still reading this, i hope you guys all the best, i've always missed 4ch, the reason i never came back was i had to get over a certain person i use to post on this thread, it took me a long time to get over her but im finally over it which is why i came back finishing up my story. i'll still keep an update to who ever likes to know what happens :) Take care too all of you! :D

-Eiga Otoko

746 Name: 映画男 : 2013-04-16 12:26 ID:EnYU3GUA

747 Name: HaloUTD08 : 2013-04-25 18:06 ID:PHtNKamZ

I'm just goin' 2 say I'm happy 4 u. U went through so much the last 7 years since posting on 4ch. It saddens me that you are now done with this thread...but you've been an inspiration for many. I hope the best for you and Miya!!

748 Name: Secret Admirer : 2013-04-26 14:33 ID:p6uiN1rv

test

749 Name: Secret Admirer : 2013-04-26 14:37 ID:p6uiN1rv

before confessing to her, u shoud put ur pants down and show her ur belonging on skype.

she will like urs and accept ur confess

750 Name: 映画男 : 2013-10-07 18:38 ID:MKGinrd/

hey guys!
just to let you guys know some news, I released my new single EP on iTunes called "Everytime" come check it out :)

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/everytime-ep/id675912520

p.s. Me and Miya are almost dating for exactly a year!! time surely flies :D

751 Name: Secret Admirer : 2015-04-24 06:45 ID:Jc2IjrGi

wow i didnt know 4ch had a 7 years story going on intill now. I checked your music, your style reminds me of Jason chen on youube :P

any way Eiga hows your love life with Miya going on? (not sure if your gonna read this or not)

752 Name: Secret Admirer : 2015-04-29 13:59 ID:Heaven

>>751 This place is ancient history

753 Name: HaloUTD08 : 2015-07-22 21:40 ID:/nhd07mm

映画男/Benson,

Where have you been?! U doin' ok? Still with Miya?

754 Post deleted.

755 Post deleted.

756 Name: 映画男 : 2015-11-17 12:11 ID:T1ZAHOvv

>>753 we just broke up two weeks ago after being together for 3 years. still going through the healing proccess

757 Name: Secret Admirer : 2015-11-23 00:51 ID:F6IYATF0

>>756
Do you feel ok to talk more about it here, to contiue your life story?

758 Name: 映画男 : 2016-04-08 18:39 ID:xFgyl7WD

well a lot has happened since my break up with miya. my life completely went down hill after miya, i was very unmotivated, i felt like i couldnt feel anything anymore nothing could make me happy as i just felt like staying at home all the time. To be honest i was actually preparing to propose to her because i wanted to settle down with her, but the problem with being with miya was that she took control of my whole life. I use to wake up at 6:30AM to drive her to work almost everyday for a year and i'll pick her up from work whenever i have a day off. The reason why she broke up with me was she said she felt like i wasnt protective enough for her, but for me i felt like i gave her everything i could but it just wasnt enough. even though we broke up she said she misses me but said we cant be together unless i loose weight since i promised her i'll thin down by our 3rd year anniversary. we had a lot of ups and downs in this 3 years relationship and even now i still miss those days.

I quit my job in January and went back to Australia for about 2 months. I was actually planning on moving back too melboburne as truthfully there was nothing left for me in taiwan. Most of my really good friends left taiwan for work so i didnt have many friends in taiwan. i thought maybe i should go back to melbourne and start fresh. I went on a few dates with some girls but just didnt feel right and i wasnt very interested in starting another relationship so fast. 2 weeks ago i came back to taiwan to gather some of my things and was preparing to move back to melbourne. A friend of mine didnt really want me to leave and she kept saying she can find me a job in taiwan if im willing to stay. I met her 2 days ago and she brought one of her co-workers who was her mentor. at first she caught my interest a bit as she was very pretty and had a cute smile, we went karaoke that night but she didnt really sing as it was me and my friend who sang most of the time. my friends mentor is called Ruby, she kept saying i have a cute accent and she reckons its good that i'm chubby. i actually kept blushing a lot when she said i was being cute and said she only came that night just to meet me. to be honest i havnt felt like my stomach was inside out for a very very long time, last time i felt like that was probably 3-4 years ago. after karaoke we went to a small park and chatted a bit more, we took a cab and i sent both of them home first, when she got off she said to me "i hope i can see you again" which made me go completely red. that night when i went home i couldnt sleep and i just kept smiling like a creepy guy. Tonight i actually met up with them again after they finished work and we went for a late night dinner. i dont know why i just couldnt stop looking at her and tried very hard not to smile so much, im pretty sure my face was always red. after dinner i sent them home again but this time i walked her home when we got off the station, it was a really nice 15 minute walk and we just chatted and laughed a lot. i end up getting her contact tonight and i said i'll cook her dinner tomorrow and bring it over to her workplace, she looked pretty excited about it. :)

759 Name: 映画男 : 2016-04-08 18:46 ID:xFgyl7WD

i forgot to mention she and her friend has been persuading me to join their company to get me to stay in taiwan. right now im still thinking if i should stay here or go back to melbourne, but i reckon the chance of me staying in taiwan is higher now. I havnt met any girl for so long that made me so nervous like this.
tomorrow i plan to make her some salmon pasta because she likes pasta :) i felt like we really connected a lot during that walk, i honestly havnt been this happy since my break up. from what i know she doesnt like guys being too sensitive, everytime i just think of her i feel like theres butterflies in my stomach lol

i'll see how tomorrow goes.

760 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-04-10 11:25 ID:A6PgU/5k

>>759
How is your music making going?
And good luck with the dinner!

761 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-04-11 10:52 ID:gClkLcF3

Update us and tell us how it went! :O

762 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-04-12 01:07 ID:nfVpZh+K

>>759

EIGA OTOKO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How did it go???? Tell us!

763 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-04-19 11:35 ID:tOnt4+TX

parusuteng@gmail.com

764 Name: 映画男 : 2016-05-04 17:22 ID:xFgyl7WD

sorry havnt updated you guys

<<760 i still make some music whenever i have free time~ but havnt upload anything on youtube for a long time now.

well the next day i prepared some salmon and shrimp pasta, took me about an hour to get it done. i got to her work place and i also prepared one for my friend, i waited for about 15-20 minutes for her cos she was still working. as soon as she ate it she said "wow I'm impressed! its like restaurant quality!" I'm pretty sure my face went red again as i could feel my face was pretty warm. we sat in front of her company while she was eating and chatted, i told her that she should feel special since i havnt cooked for anyone but my ex so far. i felt like i had a chance since shes always saying how nice i was and when I accompanied her home with the three of us, she told me to come sit with her at the back when my friend got off the cab. i dont know why but i just felt really motivated again, ever since my break up i havnt felt that motivated for a very long time. we chatted for a few days through LINE app and she told me she got a fever and didnt feel very well. I was in the hospital that morning for a check up so i thought i'll bring her some medicine, went to the pharmacy and brought her some medicine for her fever. I got to her work place and even got her some orange juice as i looked up on google and it said orange juice helps reduce the fever. she came down from her office and i pressed my hands on her head to see how hot she was, she was really happy that i brought her some medicine and said i was very sweet for doing that. good thing my orange juice and medicine worked as her fever went down in the afternoon and she felt a lot better. on the same day, my friend messaged me saying she had some very bad news, apparently she was talking to her and some how she mentioned "my boyfriend and I".

when i read it, i felt crushed, all those butterflies in my stomach just dropped dead. honestly i didnt know how to feel when i read it and my friend just kept saying sorry to me because she said she felt bad not asking it in the beginning and this whole time we thought she was single. what i felt strange was that she never mentioned she had a boyfriend when i did all those things. i dont know what got into me i just directly asked if she wanted to go catch a movie some time with me, at first she said depends if she feels better from the fever and asked my friend if she was free to join us, sadly she said my friend wasnt free and said maybe next time. from that moment i was pretty sure i had no chance but why couldnt she just tell me she had a boyfriend. afterwards i dont know what came to me i got even more depressed as i felt like i was back into square one again, all those break up emotions just came and rushed back into me. i went back into insomnia mode for the next 2 weeks and my blood pressure went up to 178, there was one night my blood pressure was so high i felt like i was about to faint. There is this girl who i got to know in February this year that my friend introduced who was trying to cheer me up, she would call me to see how i was as she was pretty nice to me. she also just broke up 5 months ago from a 6 years relationship which she hasnt moved on from as she never stop talking about her ex boyfriend to me. there was 2-3 days i kind of got a little suicidal and literally just said "fuck it im done with life", i was really tired of always meeting the wrong people and loosing my loved ones. i felt like it wasnt fare that i had to loose miya when i gave her everything. i somehow snapped my self thinking through all the shit i have went through and told my self "you didnt go through all that for nothing." i think mainly was i felt very lost as i didnt have any directions to go to and i had no goals. all my other friends were all getting engaged from their long term relationships and have a successful career which made me feel like i was behind and not sure what i want to do with my life.
*continue

765 Name: 映画男 : 2016-05-04 17:23 ID:xFgyl7WD

after a few days, i traveled to japan with my friends for 10 days, only just got back last night. The trip to japan i think really healed me as i feel like im back to normal now. I met up with Miya this afternoon and took the train with her back to her station, we had a nice chat on the train but seeing her made me really miss her. I'm going to see miya again this friday after she finish off work and we're going to go watch Captain America: civil war. I'm pretty sure its a bad idea to see Miya but once i leave taiwan end of this month i wont be able to see her again till maybe next year. I'm still not 100% sure if moving back to melbourne would make it better for me.

766 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-05-16 15:50 ID:r+RopROC

>>765

let it go, man

767 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-05-17 17:48 ID:HaS96R9Z

Wow, so many years have passed since I last read this thread and checked your YouTube profile out. You're a trooper. Hang in there. Hope things turn out well for you.

768 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-05-20 09:10 ID:Heaven

its been 10 years and still going, amazing

769 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-07-12 04:42 ID:/LE4BJpy

you're a living legend, eiga otoko

770 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-08-27 05:25 ID:jcIMly5d

Why didn't I discover this thread sooner?!!

771 Name: 映画男 : 2016-10-05 07:11 ID:xFgyl7WD

Sigh I just went through two months of literally hell in June when i moved back to melbourne , will find time to update everyone

772 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-11-02 04:28 ID:6Pk/4yBt

I hope things are going well my friend.

773 Post deleted.

774 Name: Secret Admirer : 2016-11-25 10:16 ID:znN+X0Q7

benson, you do it wrong. after 10y you have to know it.
i recommend read:
mark manson - models - a comprehensive guide to attracting women
mark manson - the subtle art of not giving a fuck

775 Name: 映画男 : 2017-06-27 06:34 ID:KyBe68c7

its been so long since i posted and so much has happened.
but long story short i managed to pick my self up in the end, I found out Miya actually got together with someone else last year and is getting married soon which was super shocking for me.
What really helped me get better was i started gyming last year and it really helped me mentally and physically.
I've been hanging out with a lot of friends who came back from melbourne and met a few nice people.

Will find time to update, sorry i disappeared for so long.

776 Name: Secret Admirer : 2017-09-27 11:28 ID:gxRnV2sw

Take care of yourself Eiga!

777 Name: Secret Admirer : 2017-09-27 19:27 ID:R17RJeHy

dicks out for Harambe

778 Name: Secret Admirer : 2017-11-08 16:51 ID:mnMwLx42

EIGA WHATS GOING ON

779 Name: 映画男 : 2018-06-09 09:58 ID:nX6JtAy+

hey there, just to let you guys know i'm still alive

i moved to china last year and started a new life again, been here for 7 months.
I'm actually about to start dating with a women who's 5 years older then me.

780 Name: Beck : 2019-03-03 08:05 ID:CXEXBreq

Sweet Jesus, this epic thread has been going on for 10 years, and I enjoy every moment of it.

So how's it going so far, keep us updated bro!

781 Name: Secret Admirer : 2019-08-23 00:55 ID:mP4GlHRq

>>779
my man, you're a 4-ch original. you have got to be 50 years old by now. back in 2006 i was still sucking on titties. i was 20 at the time.

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