wow thats a pretty tragic story!! T_T
I can understand what that feels like having that feeling stuck inside and cant get it out. i dont know why you tried to kill your self when she didn't even shot you down hard but still shows kindness towards you ~"~ well i reckon you should do is stay close or good friends with her cose since she has a boyfriend and i dont think you would want to ruin that would you?? sometimes you just need to accept these things but stil dont give up, stay close/good friend and keep trying!! dont try anything stupid like killing you self cose for one thing i know is that suicide are for people who doesn't have any will to live for anything and has given up. the worse things are people kill them selves cos of these relationships, you need to build up your mind and accept these stuff. Wish you all the best and remember niver give up!!!

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