Well, I know it won't be respected, but I took her back. On terms.

Yeah, yeah, I know. Screwing myself over. And maybe her.

I felt bad that I did it when she was genuinely getting better - trying to, and suceeding. It's just that my heart wasn't in it. I'm trying to accept it a bit more, and she's been fine so far. I'll probably go at it again if she goes all... crazy in the future.

Reason to put myself through that potential hell: vowing to be a hermit was not a good way to remember her by, and I thought she deserved more than being broken up with WHILE trying her hardest. I made her promise that, if she DID want to date again, she'd have to see myself and her friends after the breakup. Also, that the final breakup would be less... childish. That we'd speak, and be sad, and not beg at any point. Else I'll just hang up and not feel bad.

Thank you for being concerned, guys. But I felt that her feelings weren't being thought of in this instance - for once, in this relationship, I was doing the unfair thing instead of her. When it actually comes to an end, I'll post again, if you guys are interested.

And if it's in, like, four days, feel free to mock me. -_-

PS - Holdincourt, I can't spend time with her. Part of the problem is probably that she's three hours away from me while we're on summer break from college.