My Hotaru doll is a CUSTOM Realdoll I ordered for myself after coming back from Iraq. I was going to buy a Barrett M82 .50 but decided that I loved Hotaru so much that I needed a Hotaru Realdoll. It cost me 8,000 but she has just the right shade of pale complexion, Violet eyes, and black pageboy hair.
I will post no links or pictures to it. I'm very open about having her, but respect her too much to put her on parade for all the world to see.