>>4 Now I have two different opinions :D.
I'll never stop thinking on ways to pleasure him, but what I meant is that a couple of years ago all I could think about was make him happy, give him pleasure, do what he wants, and not for a second thought about me. I was like this with everyone and gave me lots of lonely sad nights (I was such a cry-baby.. Ah, the angsty youth). But yeah, if he's enjoying the ride I couldn't be happier... But yeah, gotta start feeling rather than thinking.

And it's not that all I do is mock about it, I'm kind of an agressive girl and usually cover my shyness and embarrasment with smirks. But in the end we're at the same love-struck level, and love to show it to each other.