>>ahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahahah wow, just wow, try to even understand what will is before even talking to me again ok

Yes I see you have not discovered the fine art of twisting your own mind. Not that it makes you very different from most people, it's only unfortunate that your circumstances
would hopelessly turn you into such an odd fella'.

But you seem to be happy with your situation so really why should I care? For your own good perhaps, so here's a protip for you son:

Will and control as you mention is emptyness, without a force to drive them, will is betrayed and control is lost. How often do we not act opposite to our will, we do not say what we wished we said or do what we wanted to do, often we actually do and say what we do NOT want to do or say.

What we want is equal to will, what we do is equal to our emotions. As long as our emotional currents are quenched, we can, more or less, live as we will. But once our emotions burst out due to lack of stimulation, we lose control, and find that we have no power over our lives.

What you are doing, motherfucker, is backing away from all situations that stir emotions within us, so you don't have to worry about losing control over your odd mind. You set up in your private environment, a haven for drenching the violent flames within you, to the best of your abilities. And this keeps you content to a level that you can go through life without snapping.

for now

But mark my words, you WILL snap. It's just a matter of time because in your mind you're already broken. I can see it in your words, you are the kind of person who snaps. Your thinking is not natural, it will not sustain you because our emotions will always be and require what is natural. Your hypocracy bullshit will break you to shit, how the fuck can you bring yourself to imagine anything else?