>>634 here.

I made up my mind. After some days of slowly falling into a mild depression, I shook myself up and set things straight in my head.

I will carry on as I did before. I'll set my goals for the future as to work, get money, and then travel all over the place to see my friends, wherever they may hide in the future. Especially her.

I'm going to love everything just a bit more. After all, it's all in my mind so no one but me can do anything to it. If I want it, they can't shield themselves from love. They can't prevent me. They can do things like not answering, be harsh, whatever, I don't care. I'm stronger than they are.

And I'll tell her that. I'm going to tell her exactly how I feel. How much I love everything in this godforsaken world, every instant, everything really. And that amongst all those things, she managed to get a special place. That it's not a problem if she doesn't love me. I'm above that, I'll just keep it in my head, and we'll carry on. At least I'll do.

Fuck it all. Fuck all of your fears, all of your regrets, all of your remorse, all of your anguish, all of your sadness, all of your distress, keep your passions, value them, love them, fling them as high as you can.

I feel that's the best you can do - I feel that's the best I can do.