hm. i've found myself in love with two different people. i'd be incredibly happy with either one of them, but at the moment they're both completely inaccessible - one due to distance, the other to sexual orientation.

with distance-guy i at least have a chance, but only if we somehow find ourselves living in the same country; he doesn't "do" long-distance stuff, and to be quite frank i'm not too enamoured with the idea either. but he does actually love me back, which is more than i can say for the other guy... and distance is at least something that can be overcome.

as for sexual-orientation-guy, distance is no problem, he lives only a few streets away from me and we often see each other around the place... but he's straight (and i'm not). and in a few weeks he's leaving and i might never see him again. maybe just before he leaves i could tell him everything on the 0.0000001% chance he's in the closet or something... i wouldn't have much to lose by that point, i suppose. although i'd probably have to be really drunk just to have the balls to do it.