OP: Your english is very bad. Hint: English isn't all about spelling. "Feeling attraction...?" "Despite she's probably..." "grown an attraction.." "as a shorten way of typing.." I could go on, but hopefully you get the idea. It's generally the way you phrase things that make you sound like a esl (English as a second language) person. Anyway, just made me curious as to if you were an esl, studying japanese.