It's hard to say. It sounds like you were in a pretty low and dark place for a while. Where are you in your life right now? It sounds like you're on a bit of an upswing right now, but how stable is that? I think you need to get your bearings and get back on your feet. Get your own life moving in the direction you want. Pursue your dreams passionately. Better yourself however you can.

Keep in touch with her, if you can. Try being friends. Talk to her about what your doing in your life. Try not to dwell too much on your problems; the last thing you want is for her to see you as too emotionally needy or in need of a mother figure.

You may be able to use her as a motivation to turn your life around. Maybe, just maybe, as you get yourself together, she'll see you differently. As someone she can rely on, rather than as someone who saps her emotional strength.

I don't know. Maybe it will work, though probably not overnight. She might come back to you. On the other hand, maybe it's just too painful for her. But even if that's the case, you'll be in a better place. You'll feel better about yourself and be better able to keep up your end of future relationships.

Best of luck to you! Give it your all.