Kinda gross, but still...(First Time Experiences) (16)

3 Name: Secret Admirer : 2006-11-29 08:03 ID:rVvZaX9C

(conclusion)...

She let me keep her panties as a sorta "momento" (which I probably still have somewhere, they weren't outlandishly special or anything), though she didn't want anything to do with my boxers...go fig. The next day we saw them all off at the airport, and that was the last I saw of her (though I saw my aunt and uncle and little cousin again a few years later on a return visit; she was away at college).

So yeah, my cousin was my first sexual experience AND my first sex partner...though I doubt I was her first. We IM each other a few times a week still and occasionally trade joke emails, and every so often those two weeks pop up in conversations. We both know that, as cousins, it wasn't a moral thing for us to do, but neither of us regret it. It was fun, and it was what be both wanted and needed at the time. We're both well-adjusted, for the most part...this is the funnier part of this story:

Neither of us have very common names. Sure, you'll hear our names every so often, but if you go to one of those insipid little stores that sell knick-knacks and coffee mugs with peoples first-names written on them you can't buy something with either of our names off the shelf. The point? She married (and is still married to) a guy with my first name, and I recently married a woman with her first name. My wife looks nothing like her, and her husband looks nothing like me...but it's still funny that we wound-up marrying someone with each others names.

Maybe it's subliminal for both of us that those two weeks were more special to us than we realized. We both think, however, that fate just likes to play bizarre jokes.

How does this fit into Love and Romance? Sure we liked each other, but we don't love each other like that. And there was nothing romantic about what we shared. However, having sex with my cousin was the best thing that ever happened to me. Before that summer I was painfully shy around girls. Afterwards? She'd given me the feeling that maybe I was attractive and desirable, and it gave me a different outlook on life. Don't get me wrong, I've only had sex with six total women in my life (one being my cousin, one being my wife--and she knows nothing of this of course). But realizing that I wasn't just some pathetic nobody gave me the confidence to pursue other girls, and later women. It was still tough finding people who wanted to date me. I'm more the nice guy than the bad boy, but if it weren't for my cousin I daresay I wouldn't have been able to date at all.

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