Yeah. I know I shouldn't be so focused on someone... but I really haven't been able to get over him before. ^^; And, I should've mention it before, but that was the fourth time or so I actually admitted I loved him. Just the first time I wasn't all "uwaaa blushblush" about it.
One of the reasons I probably stayed so into him was because, after the first time, whenever I admitted it to him it sounded like his feelings for me increased. I stopped seeming like a friend or sister, and seemed more like that someone he could date, though generally was unsure what he thought of me.
His reaction to what I said was the usual "I'm sorry, there's better people out there" and yadda yadda. He did admit, if he werent seeing anyone, he would give me a chance. Though that would probably be partially out of pity. --;
I don't think I'm scared about rejection, really. I hate it, especially in this case, but usually if I liked someone at some point I tell them and get it out of the way. But with this guy, telling him hasn't led me to stopping the feelings...
...Hopefully now it will.