Short version:
I fell in love with a woman in her 20s. I was only 16, and so she appeared to have no feelings in return. She graduated college and moved overseas, and I thought that would be the end of that. But I can't get her off my mind even though over half a year has passed.
Ultra Long Version:
Our Japanese class was visited and assisted by a Japanese-American college student that was studying to become a teacher. She was young, pretty, and I immediately developed a crush on her the moment I saw her. Thus, I was naturally elated when she began teaching our class full-time. We became fairly close, although in a semi-awkward way. Unlike the other topic about falling in love with a teacher, the difference here was that she was still in college. Thus I had fleeting thoughts about having a chance with her. (Even though she had a boyfriend, which I found out.) However, the rational part of myself told me that it could never happen, mainly because of the age difference. Nonetheless, the irrational part of me craved contact with her.
She told us that we could email her for Japanese help, and I immediately began writing emails in Japanese to her, under the pretext of practicing Japanese. And indeed, part of me was practicing Japanese, but part of me was just doing it so I could find out more about her. I was really good at Japanese, and thus I think that she began to see me as an equal. Evidence of this is that when she was having trouble in class with something, she would ask me for advice. She broke up with her boyfriend, and part of me yelled, "This is your chance! Forget about the age difference and go for it!" But, I've never been brave at all, so I instead put her out of my mind. I learned that she was moving away at the end of the year, and that was even more reason for me to not get involved with her.
So, basically, our relationship never went anywhere - stayed at that strange level where I couldn't tell if she saw me as a friend or as a student. I'm hoping it was the former, and I'm leaning towards it based on the evidence. Since she was only a student teacher, she became much friendlier with her students.
(Continued in next post)