I remember falling in love. What I thought was the perfect girl....nice, sweet, gorgeous.....I did what I've never done before, Everytime she was near my heart would pump louder and faster. When I thought about her, I was given strength to actually do things I couldn't.. In the end I was only rejected. Was it love for me though? I felt the pain....Does that count?
I've had one girlfriend in my entire life so far but it was a long-distance/internet type thing. I know her in person so it wasn't awkward. Even though it was through emails, I still felt that "love aroma" around. When I found out she was interested in another guy, I just let her go. I cried just as before when I had been heartbroken.
It seems that I can't do anything if it involves being face-to-face, when I'm not seen I can accomplish the things I hope to do with the girl I like......
Now here I am, lonelier than ever. I'm in highschool and all I ever wanted out of it was a Highschool sweetheart. The one thing that truly makes "the best years of our lives". All around the girls on campus.....I don't feel the "spark" I felt before. But I'm tempted to get a girlfriend because I'm unhappy. I pretend to feel happy yet inside I'm aiching. I don't know what to do. Faith is taking so long....And when it comes....it's gonna break my heart. I'm not emo, I'm not crazy. I'm an otaku who just isn't the type of guy girls would be fond of. And when they are, they tend to find someone better looking.....Only 2 more years till I graduate, and I don't count on seeing "my true love" anytime soon. Looks like Prom's gonna be one Hell of an experience.