know it's long but I really need your help....
I have a big problem. My best friend, about 2 months ago found out I was bi and that also I had a big crush on her these past 2 years. Well, a week after telling her all that, she suddenly decided she was bi too. Her sudden "realization" of her sexuality made me skeptical. I mean, all these years she has been telling me about all these guys she thought were totally hot. I had even asked her a few times before what she thought about lesbians and she replied by saying it was nasty and wrong. So now she's only checking out girls, and pays no attention to guys whatsoever. And now she's suddenly getting crushes on girls in like 1 day! I mean, someone like her suddenly having a HUGE flip like that? It makes me wonder if she's bi just because of me. But, I don't want her to suddenly change her lifestyle just because of me. About a month ago she started doing things like holding my hand, kissing me on the cheek, but before all the small things she went ahead and did something big. She decided she wanted to run before she crawled. That really made me upset. She started things off the wrong way. I mean, I haven't even had a real kiss yet. I didn't want things to be like that. And the part that makes me upset is that she said she did it to "Prove to me that she cares." She constantly does things to prove herself. But I only want her to do things just because she wants to. Not to just prove a point.
All these reasons and more have made my love for her fade away. Another reason is that guys constantly hit on her, and she just takes it. She doesn't react to them, but she doesn't stop them. I don't want a girlfriend that constantly has guys after her. (btw, she was never my girlfriend).
Well, to finally get to the point, I told her that I'm confused about my feelings. That I'm not sure who I like anymore. And then yesterday night she called and we talked about normal things. Then she started asking who I like and I said no one. I really am confused about who I like right now. But she kept on asking and asking. So I hung up on her. So then she called back and apologized saying she’s sorry she cares. I told her that I need to work this out by myself, and she went on to say that she could help. Then she went into this long monologue in tears saying that she wants to protect me from the world no matter what it be even if it’s her she went into many other things. Then she said, “I love you.