Otoko demo, hosuto demo, kawaranai yo! (23)

1 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-07 01:31 ID:0NW36DJT

Well, I've found myself in an interesting situation. It's not the first time, and now I'm realizing the implications of the situation. See, this girl I know... well, she seems to have developed quite a thing for me. She's wanting me to come from my home from hers (a few hundred miles) tomorrow, and is paying for train fare. Now, this becomes a bit complex...

See, I don't really have any interest in her. She wants to fuck like a rabbit, and is probably looking for some kinda relationship thing. Me... I'm doing it because I get free booze, good food, and can extort cash from such a setup, me being completely broke at the moment. Now, this isn't, by any means, the first time I've been in such a situation. In fact, every girl I've had a relationship with has been just such a story. So, I've been feeling like a bit of a whore. However... considering I'm playing the whole game of pretending to be in love and have feeling... It's struck me that it's a very "host"-like situation.

So am I a whore, or a host? Should I be as disgusted with myself for what I'm doing, or just keep rolling with it? It really bugs me, in a way, because playing this preposterous game make me fear that it'll interfere with ever finding a girl I really care about. Am I just nuts for coming on a -chan and complaining about the fact that women seem to be falling in love with me at every turn?

2 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-07 02:30 ID:u3u3FiRj

ok, so the girl is paying, you will have sex with he eventually and you don't like her. Well, she will be hurt, but it seems thats not what you are concerned about, so no, don't worry about it.

3 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-07 02:40 ID:0NW36DJT

Well, I am concerned about hurting her, that's part of it. I feel like I'd hurt her if I refused as well, though.

4 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-07 06:04 ID:Heaven

you will hurt her less if she doesnt come over and you dont fuck her. but you are not a whore. you are a douchebag. see whores pay for sex, she is paying to see you and you dont like her but you are going to fuck her anyway. so you are a douchebag because you are taking advantage of the situation to get some pussy. aint nothin wrong with free pussy...

5 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-07 07:54 ID:0NW36DJT

But I'm not doing it for the pussy. I could care less. I'm a hopeless romantic, all I really want is love, as stupid as it sounds.

I'm just really broke and haven't had a decent meal in months, haha. I'm doing what I can do to survive. Besides, I share a one-room place with a friend, his girl is coming, so this is a good oppurtunity to get out of there for a few days so he can be with her.

6 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-07 12:52 ID:iFJNHzLM

You are a Gigolo. Toyboy. Booty Call. Host. Whore.

All involve selling your body for a little cash.

7 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-07 13:26 ID:C/Eovz8v

Double standards. A guy like you would be called a legend yet a girl in the same situation would be branded a slut/whore/etc.

All things aside, it just depends on whether or not the girl really does like you or is just looking for a fling.

I think you said she's looking for a relationship, do you think she's looking for a serious relationship, or is she just after some company?

8 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-07 22:13 ID:Heaven

>>7
stop with the feminist bullshit. why would be called a legend? he would be called a legend if she had a twin sister and he was able to do them both and the mother at the same time.

it is quite simple. she likes him but he doesnt like her, but he is along for the ride because he is lonely. dude if you dont like her then dont be with her. if you want a hot meal go eat at your mom's house, but dont trick the girl because you are hungry.

9 Name: Newoz : 2007-02-08 01:24 ID:Heaven

>>8
So true.

Where do you think this situation is going towards?
I really suggest you talk to her. Really. Ask her why she's treating you like a whore. And even tell her how you feel.

Although being paid to do that with her makes it even stranger. Be careful out there buddy!

10 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-09 13:45 ID:NgGN1Lhj

anyway you look at it... all he's doing is taking advantage of girls. none of this bs that he's a "hope-less romantic" or that he's lonely. he's just an outright prick who wasn't hugged by his mom, now he goes and tries to get the attention out of every girl. here's some advice. get a job. sell your computer. and remain celebate for 20 years until you're mature enough to handle a real relationship.

11 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-10 01:10 ID:iFJNHzLM

>>10
Called it.

12 Name: Kira : 2007-02-10 07:00 ID:TyUA4nOK

Wow your a jerk... Because pplz like this... The world is getting worse... I think you need to get a job. And tell her the truth. She's a human too. We all are. Think about it.

13 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-11 00:47 ID:0NW36DJT

Yep, I'm an asshole, I guess. At the same time, though, I've never been one to have the balls to go after women I like. So I end up fucking around with these women who have a thing for me, just because I'm bored, I suppose, and maybe even because I hope to find something in it that I might want. In the end, she got what she wanted.

But, still, maybe I'm not so much of an asshole... I really do feel bad doing such things, and it does feel very wierd to be fucking a chick you've really got no feeling for. I can truly say I've never enjoyed sex, which is odd. I find it no different from fapping, so the only thing I care about during it is satisfying the girl. Maybe if there were something emotional there...

14 Name: Nibbles : 2007-02-11 01:07 ID:AJqwmpzZ

I think if you dont like her that way then why waste the time with her, find someone you do like, maybe fall in love, etc.

15 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-11 04:48 ID:NgGN1Lhj

blah blah blah. bs tamaki. purely bs. if you sincerely feel bad and think its a real problem, go to friggin counseling. don't try to console yourself and say that you're not an asshole, cuz that is exactly what you are. you just need to grow up, and learn respect. people like you give the male gender a bad name. like i said before, act your age, or remain celebate until you can.

16 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-12 04:01 ID:0NW36DJT

I don't want to have to reply so defensively, but I fear I've got no choice. I'm just doing what I need to do to keep my shit together.

You guys don't know my situation, or even my age, so please don't act as if you do. I'm, honestly, offended, by the "go eat at your mom's house" comment. Anon couldn't know, of course, but I haven't got one, nor anything else that could be called family. I've been on my own since I was eight years old. The money's now run out, and, believe me, I'm trying to get myself work, but it's a bit more difficult than it normally is, when you're in LA, don't have much in the way of qualifications, and don't even have your own place anymore. I'm just exploring any options I can, to building a life. If it means playing the part of a man-whore, it's still better than nothing.

17 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-12 04:56 ID:Q3pVp0Ns

I feel sorry for the girl though. I once got to know a lovely girl, and I fell in love with her and she fell in love with me. However, she was so terrified of getting hurt that she chose to distance herself from me, and I never got to be with her.

You know why she distanced herself from me? Because fuckers like you had ripped her heart to shreds in the past. Your actions now will put people through shit like this later. I'd love to clean up your mess, but regrettably you often never even get the chance to do it. I just wish I could have been the one she first fell in love with instead of some mindless punk who didn't hesitate to use someone else for his own interests and nothing else. They got what they wanted, those bitches, and now there is nothing left for me.

I'm sorry you got handed a shitty situation Tamaki, but if you let that lower you to also being shit you're less than human, you're just dirt.

18 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-12 05:03 ID:0NW36DJT

This girl wasn't looking for love, and we both knew it. She just wanted a good time and to fuck around. Believe me, if it was a situation where she was expecting love, I wouldn't have gone into it in the way I did. I may be a bit cold, but I'm not heartless.

But, I know full and well I'm worse than dirt. I'm just junk, thrown out by my family like the rest of the trash. I've been living with that knowledge for my whole life, pretty much. Considering that, why should I try to pretend to be anything other than the trash I am? Might as well take advantage of being an awful bastard, and try to get ahead in life a bit.

19 Name: Nibbles : 2007-02-12 05:13 ID:AJqwmpzZ

Ay I say if shes just in it for the sex then theres nothing wrong with you doing the same and I can understand the low on money and no food, etc, and if shes cool with it, then I say No Worries Mate.

20 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-12 05:38 ID:Q3pVp0Ns

>>18

It didn't seem like it to me with this "probably looking for some kind of relationship"-statement. Girls have a tendancy to mix the fuck like rabbits and continuous relationship-parts and may feel either end is a good start.

Besides, making the obvious state of mankind an excuse to roll with it is for bitches. Everyone is low as shit, especiallly those who think they're not, it's those who do not accept this and make an honest battle against themselves who have figured it out. Don't excuse your actions with your situation. Either just say this is what you want regardless, or say no. Fundamentally bad people stay rotten even as their circumstances improve, as opposed to upright people who always strive to be a good example of man.

21 Name: Tamaki : 2007-02-12 06:12 ID:0NW36DJT

While I respect the ideals of those who try to be righteous, it's all futile in the end. I've spent my life trying to live by my ideas of justice and good, and it's gotten me screwed, misunderstood, and just left me generally miserable. So now, I might as well give up those ideals, and live for myself for once. Always trying to do the right thing never works, so might as well just be wrong, and have some fun with it. You can't save everyone all the time. To make one person happy, another must be miserable. I just wish I could go back and make my younger self realize that.

22 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-12 06:21 ID:Q3pVp0Ns

>>21

Whatever, fine if you want to excuse yourself, take the easy way out. But don't justify your choice by saying that anything else is futile, because it's not.

23 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-02-12 09:40 ID:iFJNHzLM

We might've sympathised with you if you hadn't compared your situation to that of an anime character.

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