>>33 Ewww, I didn't need to know that >_<.

>>34 You're making it sound like i WANTED this to happen. Let me make this clear, i was fighting it all the way, okay?? I didn't WANT to feel this way for my brother, and if you read my previous posts, i realize that this is unnatural and wrong. I didn't ALLOW myself to feel this way, i was helpless to it. You can't help how you feel. Look at all the threads on this board about people falling in love with their best friend even though they knew they shouldn't and that it might ruin their friendship. This is kinda like that except my best friend also happens to be my brother. And stop guilt tripping me and making me feel bad about this by insinuating that i had a choice in this! You don't know the internal struggle i have to deal with and you don't know how much i'm disgusted by even myself that i'm going through all this so shut the hell up!! The only REAL choice i have is what to do with my feelings, and i choose to suppress them, as i have tried all along, so get off my case.