It's recently occurred to me that I don't find ANY real girls (or guys mind you) attractive or desirable. I never have, and I probably never will. I'm nineteen, and I'm like this still. It started around when I was younger (read: 13) and stumbled upon hentai for the first time.

I've noticed an oddity about me. I do, however, develop feelings for anime girls once in a while. I usually obsess about them when I discover one for a period of quite some time. I set them as my desktop, save both work-safe pictures and ones not so work-safe, and even buy tons of merchandise (figures, posters, etc.) of these anime girls. I'd probably marry one of them if I could. They're just so moé that I just couldn't say no.

Anyways, my parents are pissed at me since I show no sexuality except for anime girls. They say I waste my money on "trash" instead of gifts for a "real girl." This is my money I earn from my job, and I spend it as I desire. Other than anime merchandise, I also save up to fund my college expedition, so it's not like I'm a NEET or anything.

Am I hopeless? Have I passed the point to develop sexuality for real women? Is it even possible to be an asexual human? Have I perhaps developed an anime sexuality that will get me nowhere in life? Should I just buy a hug pillow?

Help me. I'm confused with myself. ;__;