I might as well update with the sad ending to this short saga: he has a new girlfriend who is not me. Apparently I was okay with the distance but he was not.

Blah.

Two things are keeping me going right now: knowing that I was perfectly happy alone before him, and that I can be perfectly happy again. I'm trying to get the self-confidence and joy for life that I had when I met him back so that when I meet someone else I'll be a fun person to be with. Life just isn't nearly as fun when you're miserable.

The other thing that's keeping me going is knowing that he's a nice guy and probably feels like shit right now too. I can't manage to stay mad at him sadly, but that doesn't mean I don't take a sadistic pleasure in delaying my answer to the last email he sent me (I'm also still deciding if I want to go the "Let's try to stay friends" route or the "GTFO my life" route).

Meh.