I need help.

I don't know how socialize.

I'm very conscious about my appearance, I take good care of my skin and my hair, and I never let my weight go over 50 kilos. People say I'm pretty all the time. I do everything a girl is supposed to do in order to be attractive. But whenever I look at a mirror, all I can see is a dark and lonely person.

I don't have many friends. I wish I could be like the 'popular' girls. It seems so much easier to them to make friends. Those girls are never lonely. Everyone loves them.

I wish at least one person could love me too...

I'm so afraid of letting people know the 'real' me... I'm scared they'll end up using my weaknesses against me. I've been bullied a lot before. I'm scared of being hurt again.

For that reason it takes a long time for me to make friends. It's almost impossible for me, for instance, to go to a party and be comfortable around someone I don't know.

I can pretend I'm ok, but lately i've been having the feeling that even when I'm surrounded by people I'm all alone.

I feel socially retarded.

Anyway, never mind me ＿|￣|○