>>9 You remind me of the "past-me". I did the same thing you did, exercise, eat less to the point where i became a zombie OBSESSED with my weight. I then understood how it actually feels to be a chick, HORRIBLE. I didn't do the purge thing, but over time i felt so guilty after eating a full meal it drove me nuts.

But i became normal and "stable", i gave up on the diet and still exercised and became average weight.

Was it all worth it? Meh, not really. SURE girls look at you more, i got more dates and more clicks on my social profile..but i never met "that girl".

I'll be honest, i gave up on the hunt. Now i'm FAT and honestly i just dont give a f#ck. I love food and i see alot of fat men with girls on their arms so WTF? I guess it's all chance, the right combination..keep going at it until you meet her. BUT i'm SO tired, if it happens then happens..i'm not gonna go cruise the streets or parties to meet her.

Yeah my hermit lifestyle diminishes the prob. but MEH, you know...i can't get one f#cking break. Life should be like a movie; you work hard, and you get something..YOU MUST GET SOMETHING, a F#CKING REWARD!

AAaaah, anyways goodluck man! Don't let despair eat you up like it did me, and there is no way out..not that i care.

Laterz