All parties involved haven't seen me in person for a year so I think it's safe to assume a big change is natural.

Just a while ago I asked her friend to ask her if she still needed help and the reply I got was (tl;dr version) "He is too serious about things."

I've always thought I was pretty laid back too. I don't drink not just because it's illegal I just don't like the idea of having alcohol inside me and I've been told she drinks a lot.

What I'm afraid of is that if I've changed too much I'll lose all the friends that I have left. I didn't gain them by pretending, I was just being myself but over years I've changed on the inside but I've kept my mask on.

But I promise that the next time I see any of them face to face I'll drop the act and be myself, although it's not that I lie all the time; I just hold back certain parts of me. Which I'm sure everybody does.