OP here:

Well, he knows that I'm bi, and that I have these desires to interact with a woman, and that we would talk about it if ever a situation should come about. But like...I don't think I'd be comfortable about it even then. I don't want to cheat on him. I love him. I really don't think I can go on in my life without him by my side after being together for such a long time, yet, my main attraction is towards women, and I only really think about them outside of my normal thoughts.

And yes, I have romantically wanted to be with a woman before, but I always crush on straight chicks so that whole angle doesn't really work for me either.

I like where I'm a right now in my life. I have someone that really cares about me. However, how can I get my mind to shut off these ideals so it will stop bugging me?