>Take this oppertunity and let them die, and realize these are just phases and don't mean anything.
That's part of what I was thinking at first, but now I know that might subconciously hurt me in the end and fill me with doubt if someone else comes along and the situation isn't so complex
>After all you seem to be ignorant about basic reasoning once faced with counteractive emotional burdens.
Usually I know how to handle my emotions, but right now my defenses aren't working.
But strangely enough, I wasn't at a low point in my life when I started liking him, unless all of a sudden I don't understand my own feelings anymore, which is strange seeing as I was pretty good at that. So I'm probably not holding out for the extra stroke to my ego- I'm pretty full of myself already, thanks.
The true conflict here isn't that I'm not sure if I I like him or not but if it's worth it.
If I spend my whole life ignoring my feelings however it'd be a cop out. These feelings lingered for a reason.
I need to find out why
It could be a phase and I may not be acknowledging it
I'm usually pretty good at rationalizing things away, but this fails me. I could understand why you think that I stop thinking or using my rational mind and for a period of time I do and pretty much use fight or flight reactoins. But aren't we a society based on fight or flight reactions when everything boils down to it? But the period for that is over and I need to make a decision
It seems like my rational mind and heart were fighting trying to come up with a solution and now they agree and all I need to do is have a little more courage and faith in myself
This is so full of contradictions
Fuck it
I'm going to put all my eggs into one basket and tell him
Wish me luck :D
But he scares me and being on shows like that are embarrasing for both parties ;_;