i have a major issue: i just cannot see how any girl could like me. i see it as an impossibility, and i cant really explain why. whenever im talking to a girl im interested in (or any girl, really), something is always telling me "she hates you, you have no chance,just leave"

i dont think girls are ever interested in me. either that or i completely suck at picking up signals. granted, there were a few times where i thought i received signals of interest from girls, but every time that happened i went through this thought pattern:

-i'm an idiot for thinking that i have a chance

-i'd better stop giving myself false hope before i cause more hurt

i really need a way to boost my self-esteem. i have absolutely no idea how though; i feel stuck. i'm turning 18 this summer, and i dont want to start university feeling like complete crap.