OP, you are such a textbook example of a wussy, needy guy, that it downright sickens me.

Do you know why that girl broke up with you? Because you acted like a needy little boy. How often did you kiss up and say "yes" to her? How long did you spend on the phone with her? How many wasted hours did you spend just watching anime with her? Too many. And when she showed the first sign of pulling back, you went nuts and tried to hold her tighter. Girls HATE that. They HATE needy, wussy little boys.

You're a 20 year old male. You're a fucking wild bronco. You're an unstoppable hurricane of testosterone. It's time to start acting like one. Men are independent. Men do what they want and don't give a fuck. Men don't apologize for their behavior and don't seek approval. You're not a little boy who needs to please his mom or his teachers anymore.

I'm not telling you to go on rampages and hurt people. I'm telling you to man the fuck up, find some hobbies, make friends with people who have those hobbies and stop feeling so damn sorry for yourself. Cause nobody else is going to care if you're miserable.