i can be ultra social if needed and i most of the time am. I'm all tired of this crap, i just want to be alone and not have any feelings.

Then again I want someone to luw and such, but I'm way too picky. It's easier to live in fantasies than real life.

I socialize and i have friends, but I've become very shy during past months and people annoy me most of the time. I dislike certain behaviour and people because of their looks/odor/voice/asymmetrical faces.

>>2 You are definitely right, my mind has sucked me in beep, but as i realized it, I'm trying to become better person and crawl out from there and get myself together, I just don't know..!
Sometimes i feel so lost, just like about right now..:(