I think im falling in love.. im 21 going 22 this march.. this is my first time to fall in love.. or so i think.. i dont know if this is love or just plain like.. im always easily attracted to guys.. especially guys who look like animes.. (well, im an otaku) im also part of those population that you call nbsb or no boyfriend since birth.. so i really dont know if what i feel for this guy is love or like.. oh, im sorry, i forgot to mention im a girl and im fr the philippines..

im currently working in a call center for a year and 3mos now.. i have this teammate whom i will call "kisame".. i really like him so much.. i recently had a crush on him, like only last november or december.. he is cute.. nice.. attractive.. fun to be with.. and has a very good personality.. and he is one of my closest friends in our team..

i dont know if its love or just like that i feel for him.. im afraid to tell him how i feel because i know his type of girl.. but recently weve been getting too close to each other.. i dont know if im just imagining things but there are times when i can feel his face very close to my cheek (like yesterday when im looking at a cellphone and he just moved his face close to the thing that im looking at and because of that his face is just very close to mine) or i can feel his breath on my neck (that was when i am having calls but he is available)..

im so afraid.. but currently i feel this heavy baggage in my chest.. i feel jealous when i hear him talking about liking other women.. oh, did i forget to mention that i know who his crush at work is? and i always tease him about his crush.. ehehe... im stupid neh? sigh i dont know what to do..

i grew up in a very conservative family wherein my parents always teach us the values of women not going after men.. i mean.. ill say it in tagalog "babae ang nanliligaw sa lalake" sigh my mother will definitely look down on me if i go and confess to him first..

i dont know.. im totally confused.. i can get some hints fr him but i dont know if im just imagining things.. and oh, he has the reputation wherein all of his past girlfriends were the one who confessed to him.. i dont know what to do.. i made a vow to myself that i wont confess to him but.. sigh and im also afraid that if i confess to him, id be rejected.. sigh you might say im a loser thinking all of these things.. but i really cant help it..

and now theres this storm coming.. our team is going to be disbanded because our team leader will be transferred to a diff account and will leave us.. all of us will be distributed to diff teams.. i dont if im going to be in the same team as he is.. sigh

and is this love im feeling for him or just like? sigh

uhn,... please give me some of your advice.. id gladly listen..