>>17 you don't need anti-depressents at the moment, since you are feeling all right. What you really need is to develop effective strategies to cope with crisis. I'm not sure you got that one. Everyone is fine in between crisis, and usually you don't commit suicide when you are feeling great. The problem is to find ways of managing the crisis, the very bad times. And perhaps this is where you could get some help.

And the problem with depression, is that it's cyclic. It will come again, you can be sure of that.

I don't think you specifically need to do anything at the moment, except if your fears block your life (girl dating, for instance). But when the next crisis comes, do get some professional help, no need to risk pain, damage or death for these kinds of things.