I'm feeling just awful. I beg for your pardon, but English is not my native language, so, if I don't get myself clear, I'm really sorry.
My name is not important, nor where I'm from. I have a story to tell and I'm not proud of it.
I felt in love with a girl. A pretty little flower in the right time of my life. I have been always a lonely boy, or man now, I'm 21. This girl, which I love for everything she gave me, was the light of my world, so warm, so kind.
We felt in love, but I think I had Love-At-First-Sight. I was romantic, I gave it all. We were together for a year and some months, we where happy together, or so I thought.
She started to get cold with me. It was because of college and my part-time job, she didn't liked that I had so little time for her, for us.
"I do it for us" I said. "I'm saving money for you, for our future. I also need to get through college, so I can give you the life you deserve." She got colder.
One day she totally froze, when I hugged her she was like ice. "We have to talk" she said. I thought the worst. "I think you don't love me anymore" she said "I think you are more interested in yourself than our relationship. I don't love you anymore, you have changed."
I felt like an idiot. I had to do something to prove myself, to show her how I trully loved her. "I'll make you love me again" I said "I'll try my best. I love you"
Then, the finals came, essays, quizzes, tests, everything. We had extra job for weeks.
I hadn't time for her, and she felt it. She took the move, I just couldn't forgive myself, she knew. "In your free-time, you prefered going with your friends, playing around, or just "relaxing". You are an arrogant and selfish jerk"
She was right. For all my selfish toughts, that I was gonna be able to get her love back, I just left her for later, I was thinking in my and my stuff. So I deserve it.
I just want you, boys and girls of the thread, that sometimes you are lonely because you are an Arrogant and Sellfish Jerk, like me. If you love someone, put that special person on top of your priorities, because she may leave you alone.
I'll live and love my yestardays, when I was happy and loved. Someday I'll move on, but today, tonight, I'll give you my word and my life as an example.
Love them with all your heart, mind and soul.
They say it's allways better to had know love and lost it than never had. But when you do, and you are alone... you don't really want to.
God bless you all.