I just don't know. I'm at the point where I'm about to give up, even though I'm only 18. All of my experiences have been failures. I haven't even ever had one kiss. In fact I'm too shy to even ask a girl out, although I can talk to them well enough, and beautifully, very eloquently, on any topic that doesn't involve love. Perhaps it would be better if I learnt to love myself.
I have some long days ahead of me together with myself.