I've been dating the love of my life for eight months now...when we met, he was with a girl he had no particular interest in- she was unattractive, annoying and he constantly complained that he had such a stupid girlfriend. She pressured him into having sex with her, the only time either of them had.
He broke up with her after we met, as he was quite enamored with me. Our relationship was perfect for a few months, until I started to really think about it- he's not a virgin, I am.

I began to think about it every day...I can always see it happening in my head, can always remember the details he expunged to me. It became a constant thought...and I became depressed. Hearing the girl's name would immediately cause me to cry, I could no longer look at pornography or even see people kissing without imagining it to be them.

I was put on antidepressants and am barely under 100 pounds now. I cannot be happy for more than an hour or so- no matter what I am doing, I always get the thoughts in my head. I know it's pathetic and I shouldn't feel this bad about something he did before we even met, but it's causing me to feel violent, self destructive and suicidal...

He gets very angry when I bring it up, because I "have no right to feel like that"...

I love him with all my heart, but I don't know what to do...