Ah, I know one thing I'm afraid of is losing my freedom and my pride in my independence. I've accomplish alot on my own and don't really like working with people very often unless I know they are dependable. I want to be spoiled and taken care of secretly but i have a hard time letting someone do that. The guy I'm currently with takes me out to eat and pays for me almost every single time, and it makes me uncomfortable at time because I feel like I'm taking advantage of him. If I pay for him, he gets uncomfortable and tells me the way he was raised, this is very wrong.

I also hate any choice or opportunity to be taken away from me. I hate missing out on things in life. There are so many things I want to accomplish. I guess having a boyfriend makes me feel like I'll possibly give up things I wanted to do that haven't even occurred yet.