OKAY GUYS I NEED HELP!!!! (19)

1 Name: Hopeless_Cause : 2009-06-29 02:36 ID:9/SZHnqx

I'm new at the whole posting thing. Yeah. So I really need you guys' help! A.A I've heard you all give really great advice and I would love to hear some of it! And BTW I'm a girl.

My love life is literally hopeless. I know I'm young and yadda yadda. But a little romance shouldn't be THIS hard to get. D:

Okay so I've had straight out horrible boyfriends for forever.
My first boyfriend, when we broke up, claimed he had sex with me and I was going to have his kids. LIES! PFFF, I was WAY to young at that time ANYWAYS! DX

A few nasty boyfriends later and I really hit the wall hard. I fall in love with this guy in my English class. A year later he asks me out. I fell in love with him because he was nice to me and funny. Every girls dream, a nice guy. Until I found out that he smoked Mary Jane. But I tried to stay with him. He didn't defend our relationship and ended up breaking up with me for someone three years older than him.

Needless to say, I was devastated. I cried and cried. For days.
And it was Wednesday night that he had broken up with me. That means I had to deal with seeing him and his friends for two more days before I got rest. I ran into bathrooms to cry all day. I don't let people see my tears, because I'm the girl who always looks happy, act's happy, defends her friends, keeps everyone happy; direly hoping for happiness in return because she's hurting. Because she puts other's happiness first. That's me. I'm really shy though, when it comes to relationships only. I'm kinda a person with a big personality. I don't much care for what people think about me, unless I like them. And I dress like I want to, not what's in fashion.

Before school was over, he got suspended because he got caught smoking Mary Jane in the bathroom. He was caught by the Principal. Dumb. Really dumb.

I just realized how much I've typed. I'll cut to the chase! :D

I like only two guys right now. I liked them before their current situation. V.V

The first guy has been my guy friend for almost three years. He has an 'on and off' girlfriend that he frequently reminds me how much he loves her. It does hurt, but I ignore it! :) He asked me out on one of the "off" times, but I was to slow on getting the courage to say 'yes' and he got back with his previous. I still like him though. He's nice to me, he is funny, decently cute, popular, and all together a nice guy. He also knows that I liked him. I'm not sure if he knows I still do though.

My other crush is on a guy from one of my math classes. He also has a 'on and off' girlfriend. But I liked him before her. He doesn't know I like him. Or that I'm a girl, for that matter.

So here's my dilima. I have no idea how to move on. It's obvious that they're out of reach, but I don't know how to get over it.

Guys, please help me. I feel like I'm trapped away from everyone, behind a glass wall. Where I can see and be jealous, but not join the party.

I feel like a helpless cause.

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