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Activities: sit at the computer and lurk /cm/ and pixiv for moar yaoi, I also do some nail art I'm going to sell with friend no2 (she designs clothes)
Skills: I didn't find any yet, I can't call nail art a skill because most of the designs aren't mine
Extras: I have a VERY BAD memory, once a therapist said it was because (and started when) my dad killed himself, around 2003, he was schizophrenic due to drug abuse. My brother got paranoid due to drug abuse and killed himself last year, in the same year my grandmother (on mom's side) died of cancer, and my mom's friends (who I loved her very much) died of cancer too, speaking of death, my older sister died of cocaine overdose when I was little.
last week I got deppressed over a mmorpg because I hadn't sleep in all night and I forgot about a portal, because of this, my friend's character almost got killed, and the douchebags who locked him in that room called me a n00b all day.
then on weekend, my mom was in a very bad mood and she screamed at me and my sister because we're lazy, my sister has a reason to be lazy, she works all day, but I don't, then I got more deppressed
at night everyone went out for dinner while I stayed here, when they came back, my (other) sister (I have 3, I'm the youngest) and my mom were arguing, I don't know over what, but my sister ended up telling her "IT'S NOT MY FAULT YOU HAVE SUCH AN INCOMPETENT, USELESS DAUGHTER!!" that was the last straw, I tried not to break up into tears because it was no use, she was right.
then I decided to kill my aunt and myself, why my aunt? because she's the greedy bitch who made my father psychotic for him to kill himself and get more of my grandfather's inheritance (lots of houses), and tried on my uncles too, she wasn't the reason to kill myself though, it was because I made this reasoning:
Father, drug addict, deppressed, schizophrenic = viewed as a problem in my family
solution = kills himself
Brother, drug addict, paranoid = viewed as a problem in my family
solution = kills himself
Me, NEET, good for anything = viewed as a problem in my family
solution = I must kill myself
and since I did not want to leave this world without doing SOMETHING I thought of elimitating another of my family's problem, my greedy aunt. I had it perfetcly planned, at first I thought of buying a gun, but it would take too long (I must be 21 to buy one) and will not pass the psychology test, so I thought of buying a katana or a wakizashi, cut her throat, and kill myself on a seppuku way. now, how to met her? one of these days my sisters has to met her and my uncles to sign some papers, I'll go first and kill her.
and yes, I have thought of my family's feelings, based on the previous experience, there's a lot of grief, but eventually we moved on, I'm not that loved anyways.
I gave up when I saw my little dog, it's funny how I gave up because of my dog's feelings and not because of my family's, no one will take care of her as much as I do, and I've heard of dogs who die out of sadness because of the loss of the owner, althought I would not see that happen.
sorry for this mess, and sorry for my bad english