This other girl... (8)

1 Name: Secret Admirer : 2009-09-06 11:39 ID:wg1k1WLy

I don't even know how to start properly but I have to get this off my chest. Since I was 17, I engaged in long-term relationships, with little to no breaks in between. I was quite happy with each of this girls but there was always other girls I wanted. They used to be very attractive and seemed to like me too, but I didn't do more with them than hold hands or cuddle while drunk. I was pretty fixated on them so often, I caught myself thinking about them rather than thinking about my current girlfriend. Each of these girls kind of came and went, but I still have contact with most of them, so I never really forgot them.
Now I'm in my 4th relationship and it's going quite well for about one year now. There never was another girl yet. But tonight I had this dream about one of those past girls. It was very intense, she was teasing me while my current girlfriend was in the same room, but she looked 20 years older. Waking up I strongly craved this girl from my dream and the first thing I did was to start my IM and try to reach her. So I kind of followed the old pattern again.
What's wrong with me? Am I a polygamous personality, or do I just lack self control?

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