December has come, and my tale will come to and end soon. Or is it just about to start? Haha. After 12 days, I will come to a standoff, I will confess to the girl I really love :)
But some background information for you guys! Half a year ago, I started to become (relatively) close with a friend of mine. We would go out and do fun things together. She's kinda the boy-ish type of girls and mostly has guy friends so it's something that feels natural and I don't really feel special about it. But come what may, after several weeks of spending time with her, I've come to appreciate her more and more and how she supplements me. We became something like best friends as we learned from each other more and more. I started to like her as a girl since then.
She's has a tough exterior and can hold her ground against others who would disagree with her, but in actuality, she's a really sensitive fragile girl inside. She's passionate in what she does like best, and I've seen her loyalty to her friends. In a stereotypical nutshell, she's your tomboy-ish, headstrong and independent girl that has a delicate inner self. And I like her so much.
So the thing is, the last time I liked a girl, it took me too long to have the resolution to tell her and ask her out. This time, I told myself that unless I could find the "right time", I will limit myself to a date. And that date comes in 12/12/2010. I actually would have chosen 12/12/2012, but that's too far! And yeah, 12 is her favorite number!
I know, I know, it took me almost half a year to actually do this. But some additional information: I've already confessed myself (kinda) to her, and we had a talk about it. Well to simply put it, it was neither a yes nor a no, and tells me that "it's my risk" if I would seriously try to court her - something to that extent.
As the days passed on, we were often together as time and our schedule would permit. She would sometimes tease me about the status of our "relationship", but so far... Nothing has been really happened.
So, tl;dr. In 12 days, I would ask and (re)confess to my best friend if she does likes me back or not. /love/, aid me and give me strength!
It's always your risk, isn't it? So just go on, try it and, if it doesn't work, you've still got a whole life ahead of you. If it does, enjoy it.
Good luck, and be sure to tell us when you have news!
>>2
Thank you. I was fully determined in the start that I will see through the end of this! Haha. I'm willing to post in detail for the next twelve days if you guys are interested.
This is sweet. And kind of close to my heart 'cos I'm a bit of a tomboy myself. I think no matter what kind of girl, we all want a little bit of romance, especially leading up to Christmas. Just don't make it overbearingly corny. For example, no grand gestures or cliches (stuff you see in the movies that apparently gets people hooked up). Keep it simple, and earnest. A night out where you usually have fun, to keep the atmosphere up. And a stroll is usually nice. Girls like strolls.
So how did it go?
Well, we just spent the 12 days as simple as we can while having fun. And in the end of it, I gave her these hair clips and asked for her to wear it the next day - in which if she did, that mean's a yes. As I was about to make my dramatic exit, she stopped me and we talked there right on the spot.
She asked me what she said before to me. I replied that she told me before that it was my "risk", and that. She then explained that, since from that time she didn't want to hurt me and rejected me softly and indirectly, in which I took the wrong signal. Haha. Yeah, I got rejected. Dang, no good end this time.
The last 4 days were extremely normal between us. We're still the same old best friends we were before. But... I just need to get rid of this weird feeling in me - and that will be the time I can really say we're back to normal. I just feel oddly disappointed, but not really at her. I don't hate her or anything. Sometimes I just stop because I don't know what to think, since I can't think of her that way anymore.
Thanks /love/ for the support! <3
>I can't [love her] anymore.
See, this is exactly what I'm talking about. Our system is dumb.
>>7
I know lol. I mean, I still love her as she's a very important friend to me. But ever since she knew I love her, I can't even hug her or something anymore. I guess I mean that sort of physical intimacy. I've read your posts though, thumbs up to you sir.
Aw, it's too bad you couldn't take your friendship one step closer. But you are lucky, or rather fortunate, to still have that friendship at all! In which case I am happy for you, as you still have her support. She will even help you if you find someone else you think you could love!