Bad girlfriend? (18)

1 Name: Sinestro : 2011-09-09 02:34 ID:zUhbG4jg

Hey guys,
so I've been dating this girl for a year. We have a long distance relationship and we started last summer, as a summer fling. Thing is, I'm just that kind of guy who won't have a thing with more than 1 girl at a time, even though it's not serious but she made out with like 3 guys and we went through a lot of drama but summer ended and we said a very hard goodbye thinking we won't see each other again.She came back to her college and made out with guy B, who she had a thing with before summer, which was during a time when we weren't dating, but we were chatting almost all the time, saying how we miss each other and love each other, so I told her that we should either stop that or become a couple and try long-distance relationship. She decided to date me and I changed my flight ticket to stay with her for 2 more weeks and things were fine.

The thing is, she has made out with like 65 guys including me (yes, she has a list) while I had like 5 altogether, most of her experience is college and it's just people that are still always around her, whenever I came to visit her, I had to hang out with them and it's not that they are bad guys, it's just I'm bothered by it and we argued about it a lot because I was jealous in the beginning but I learned to accept it and the long-distance relationship was pretty hard, we argued a lot about stupid stuff but we managed to stay together, I visited her in January for a month and then we spent this summer together.

Couple days ago I did a shameful thing and read her diary. I'm not proud of that and I would feel really bad about it if I didn't find out things that made me really upset. She didn't cheat on me as far as I know, but she wasn't completely honest either (even though she knew how is honesty important for me), it brings us back to the guy B who has been in love with her for over a year as far as I know and she was describing these moments how she lets him hug her for a little longer then it should be and things like that and I had no idea about it at all. I'm not a saint, I developed a little thing for a girl back at home too, but I told my girlfriend about it almost instantly, being honest and basically showing her that it didn't mean anything for me because I confessed.

There's this other thing too. I don't smoke. Anything. Not cigarettes, not weed. She does and I'm just disgusted by it but over the time I learned how to accept that she likes getting high from time to time, I just really hate cigarettes though so I told her that I want to make a deal that I'll accept weed if she stops smoking cigarettes and she agreed. In her diary though she described how it's going to be her secret and she kept doing it anyway.

Thank you anyone who read until this point. I have a problem that I'm going to leave in a week and we won't see each other until Christmas. We had huge trust issues at the beginning of our relationship and now I just found out that she's not completely honest with me anyway. I confronted her about the diary, I admitted that I read it because I find honesty one of the most important things in a relationship. We argued and she didn't really say anything. Thing is, she's been diagnosed with bipolar disorder a long time ago and she can get very upset all of a sudden, wanting to hurt herself and I don't know what to do pretty much at this point. I don't feel that I'm able to stay in a relationship with her, I won't be able to trust her, I have problems with trusting people as it is. But on the other hand I really wish our relationship would work out or I'm afraid what's going to happen if I decide to break up with her. She loves me very much, more than she did anyone else, she changed most of her lifestyle so we could be together. And I know I have to decide for myself pretty much but I would still like to hear opinions from other people. I'll be really thankful for any advice or just to read what would you do at my place.

2 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-09 04:51 ID:+9gDavm5

Your naivete is only hurting yourself.

3 Name: ManUTD19 : 2011-09-09 21:11 ID:PCPqWTqV

leave...while u still can

4 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-10 21:08 ID:8uH8n/R7

Forget about this girl, she's a waste of your time and energy.

5 Name: Sinestro : 2011-09-12 02:40 ID:zUhbG4jg

So, it pretty much took me just to read what I wrote here to realise that I don't have a future with this girl and that I'm not happy in this relationship. I'm going to end it tomorrow, it'll be really hard, I never broke up with a girl before.

6 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-12 04:33 ID:VHurk3Sq

ok.
i love you.
wishing you many more.
hope ur happiness.
wish her happiness,too.
good luck to you.

bye

7 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-12 06:51 ID:VHurk3Sq

pick me up,
we have a future,
i know how to make you happy.
i was happy with you even we had a distance.
hope you still like me.
he loves us.
im going to love everything about you.
love ur all me ever.

8 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-12 23:55 ID:VHurk3Sq

dear
all my people
boyz and girlz
and all kidz

love & peace.

and for you.

9 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-13 13:13 ID:VHurk3Sq

dear ppl

HELP T

now

10 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-13 15:35 ID:Heaven

>>6-9
I think she really wants you back, man.

11 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-13 16:47 ID:6wmpZj7Z

go for it man.

12 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-14 06:20 ID:VHurk3Sq

hes fine with me.

needs some love.

13 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-15 01:09 ID:VHurk3Sq

it is a nice shiny day.
and
im going out with him today.

bye

14 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-17 07:02 ID:VHurk3Sq

im gojng to end this boom tonight.

i let you finish with this right now.

got everything?

you will.

i loved you,one day.but you never did.

bye

buck to your life.

15 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-18 03:06 ID:VHurk3Sq

got love for you,

everything is fine,

you have to have me.

i need some clean air right now.

bye

and buck to you,baby.

16 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-18 14:31 ID:VHurk3Sq

go fuck urself,baby

17 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-19 06:35 ID:VHurk3Sq

dont worry about him

18 Name: Secret Admirer : 2011-09-19 07:35 ID:VHurk3Sq

go for it man.
im mad at him.
my falt><"
but nothin heart for me or you.

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