So here it goes..

I'm 22 turning 23 in two months. I will admit: I have never kissed, seriously dated and have sex with a man before. Guys have tried kissing me before but I always covered my mouth and would nervously giggle because I feel like my first kiss should be special. I dated only one person by accident (thinking it was just a hang-out but the whole atmosphere was just so weird because he started asking me a lot about myself as if it was really a date). I turned out dates before because the guys that asked me out were really not my type.

During university, I focused a lot with studies than dating but now that I'm done, I don't really know how to date someone. I'm also recovering from a one-sided love that lasted for nearly 7 years. The more I thought about it, the more I felt like I wasted so much of my "youth".. I also felt like I missed so much. During that time, I did party quite a bit with friends but I never took the guys seriously because they weren't "him".

I don't think I'm socially awkward. In fact, I'm quite friendly with everyone I meet. I'm quite talkative once someone gets to know me. However, I'm extremely shy with strangers. I like to have fun. I like to go out and drink with friends. I have tons of guy friends but I don't see them as anyone I would seriously date. They either fall in these three categories: gay, socially awkward or very close guy friends that I consider as a brother.

I feel like something is wrong with me. All of my closest friends have found that special person to share all of those first aside from me. I feel like the more I wait, the more I feel like I'll end up alone. I know a simple solution will be grab a stranger and do those stuff but it is very unlike me.

I just don't really know what to do. I feel like I can't really do anything about it. I just feel like something is really missing. I'm so sick of saying "no" every time I get asked if I have a boyfriend.

Help?