OP here. Thank you for everyone's advices. I guess I really frustrated with my whole situation
Regarding the 4th post: No, I was not sexually abused when I was a child. I had a perfectly normal childhood.
The problem with me is that once I put a guy in my friend's zone, I can't see them anything but a friend--- nothing more, nothing less. I just enjoy their company.
When I said "special", I didn't mean to sound like I'm looking for my Mr. Right (which I don't believe in). I guess what I mean is someone that I can share a connection with-- someone who I feel like I can like genuinely and not feeling like I'm playing him. It's difficult for me because I haven't met someone who I can share that connection yet. I know it sounds weird but that's how I feel.
I know exactly what my issue is.. I'm scared to really like someone or potentially fall in love with someone. When I start to like someone, something inside me pulls me back. I don't know if that means I'm not ready or if I'm searching for something else.. It just happens. I know I can probably try to fix it but I don't really know how.
I'm not for one-night stand as I stated above. It's not me. If I were to have sex with someone, I would rather have that person be my boyfriend.
Regarding post 5: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to imply that every guy out there wants to get into a girl's pants. I have plenty of guy friends as I stated above.
That's exactly how I feel with my friends but I don't feel that romantic spark with any of them (nor did I ever when I first met them--- they weren't just my type).. I love their company as well. I'm actually a lot closer to some of my guy friends than most of my girlfriends.
My best friends are trying to convince me to not worry about it too much but I guess I'm just tired of being single?
Thank you for that last paragraph and the last sentence. I'll keep those in mind :)
I tried lowering my expectations but that didn't work out so well. Some of those guys I decided to give a try ended up as either too clingy, creepy, a stalker or just plain weird.