Well after having a few letdowns I kinda feel extremely devoid of emotions and I no longer want to find love. I just want to be bad to people like they've been bad to me.

I found out, after deciding on changing my behavior, that soon all my 'friends' cut ties with me. It was that easy: each and every one of them neglected me on the first 'bad' thing I did to them. They didn't bother talking to me about it; they didn't want to know why I did what I did. It did not surprise them at all that all these years I've been 100% there for them and suddenly I changed my behavior. They used me for as long as they had to; as soon as I turned my back on them, they turned their back on me.

I won't have any more shit by anyone, no more. Anyone who is coming my way is going to get their ass handed to them properly.

Unfortunately, this sort of reasoning leaves no place for love. I don't need it in the first place. I hope you read this post. I really want your opinion on this. I know this is Love and Romance and that my post is borderline off-topic, but that's just the sort of post yours provoked.