Part 2
At the very end of it all her friends were telling me they were starting to have a relationship, around each other all the time, even talking to her he was sitting practically on top of her right there while I was on the phone- then I saw it...she went to prom and he was her date. I felt defeated...it hurt, so much. People counseled me, so many people, but I couldn't believe that this was just some teenage love crap that would go away. It hasn't. Its been with me daily since 2009...Life since wasn't the same, and I have this constant feeling like something isn't right. I kept in contact with her, because I love her to this day in a way that no one does. Later on in '09 I spoke with her and she was having a baby with him...that seemed to seal the deal that it was fate that we were officially done for good.
I unfriended her for a while, time passed, and a friend of mine who was a girl was there for me, we eventually started going out, and started dating. Thing was, as much as I cared about my next girlfriend, deep inside was still an emptiness I couldn't explain. I eventually accepted that I had to move on, and I put nearly all of my energy into my hobbies and work and created some amazing things with my time, propelled my career into great heights, and started an almost new life altogether.
I got married in 2013, but am getting divorced as of 2015...that one is a whole different story which hurt my life more than it hurt me, but after it all I felt free. And I immediately went to sort of confess to the original girl I still love so much.
She's changed a little, but I don't care. I love her unconditionally, and everything I said to her when we were teens I mean today and still uphold in my heart. She's been traveling the world, taking different jobs and career paths, but can't fully decide what she wants to do. We became friends again, but she tried to shy away from the subject of our relationship.
Talking to her as I was recovering from some life drama and pain, and the divorce I was going through, was nice but hard...I love her so much, and she was right there with me but avoided all talk of our relationship- then finally it became too much and my mother noticed, and messaged her a confession for me- then when I found out I knew the cat was out of the bag, so I told her all of my feelings...
Her outlook is judging me on who I was in the past, she remembers some of the small things like a few things I was immature about, some beliefs of mine that are long gone, left in my teen years, and she's more political, which I don't care about. She came to dislike that I put her on such high of a pedestal back then, but I always treat women the best and bragged of how much I always loved her. It made her eventually feel like she had to be better or something- even though I explained it wasn't that way. Over the years I guess she ended up feeling completely different about things she was fine with when we were together- but I still don't care, because I love her...