Sometimes you just have to do something embarrassing for a girl, like go to a Hanson concert. Tell us some embarrassing things you've done because you liked/loved someone.
I seriously was in the deepest kind of love that a person can possibly be in with a girl that I knew from school
Well, during my sophomore year, we had an Art I class together, we sat next to eachother, talked alot, ect. One day I noticed something was wrong with her neck and she said that she had gotten into a car wreck.
i travel to other country to know him...
Sophormore year, rainy season. I took an umbrella (didn't help much in monsoon) rain to pick up someone I was dating.
Her friends had told her that "the guy who likes you is here" and she apparently told them I was probably just passing by to go somewhere else. She then tried to pretend she didn't know me when I gave her the umbrella.
No ... even though I basically changed my life entirely for that girl
I went to her youth group.
And I'm an atheist. Never told her.
I went to church once with a girl I was dating, and I'm agnostic. At least it wasn't Catholic orz
i gave away my entire anime collection, 100gb+ of dvds to this girl. i didnt burn them or copy them to my hd cuz i was seeing her the next day, so i just went, to hell with it, and gave it to her cuz she liked anime and doesnt have the availablity to see it.
Hmmm the things i've done for the girl who can never love me...
I've stayed up all nigh and not slept for more than 2 hours for a few consecutive days to keep her company because she had an essay due the next day.
valentine's day is comming up. looks like i'll be doing more of those embarassing things. orz
fuck it homeslice, do yourself a major favor, and fuck it, dont allow yourself to be a doormat anymore. otherwise, youre just going to end up sad and alone, such as i feel now, so i stopped fixing girls computers, unless i get money.
I can't help it. and i don't just fix any girls computer. just hers :( I apreciate the advice though 15. heh, I've told myself "fuck it" as well but I can't help but want everything to be fine for her orz
yeah. rejected too ＿|￣|о
and still I can't help it orz
get a friend or something to help stop your horrible addiction, just, keep telling urself, fuck it and fuck her. this is really really bad, its not worth it
you're not alone ^^ changing yourself for someone. I honestly don't think i'd be where I am if it weren't for her. I was going nowhere and then I fell for her. She had really high grades and B's were out of my range (I just didn't try in school). But after her, I got my act together and actually handed in assignments (figured if i got high grades too, somehow it'd make us more the same and closer). And now i'm in university.
I liked your story and am happy that you've improved yourself, even if it was for someone you didn't get.
orz = smaller version of ＿|￣|о thats facing the other direction, yeah, ull see it eventually, i didnt at first either
and ＿|￣|о is a guy on his hands and knees. sort of a "I fail" pose.
So, I guess I'm alot like you guys on 4-ch. I used to love anime, manga, games, music, you know, geek/otaku/wap stuff. I pretty much gave all of my free time to my hobbies. Well, they weren't really hobbies back then since they were basically my life.
It wasn't long before my birthday rolled around only 2 months after school started. I wasn't expecting to recieve anything, but she gave me a hand-made birthday card that simply read:
I was really moved by the story. I've felt the same self-doubt and been as clueless in such matters. It left me feeling half sympathetic and half wanting to kick your ass for losing her, but then I realize I should be kicking my own ass too.
Oh, thank you, I never even thought of posting it in segments
Good story, 21. Hope you find someone in the future.
Thank you so much >>32
You guys, your comments really do mean a lot to me ...
awesome story 21. replacing anime with pop music... thats some serious self dicipline
No problem. I also went trough something similar like you, used to be a animu nerd (well, still am, but not as terrible as it used to be), really socially inapt, escapist etc., but I changed trough finding friends, going out and actually facing the world, which made me realise how much I wasted my life.
Yeah, it was hard trying to get rid of my obsessions, but like I said before: I did things I thought I'd never be able to do. I really did learn alot about myself through this experience
and why do we do all these things
all the silly things lovers do
the silly things lovers do
the silly things lovers do
21 i was realy touched by your story, i was wondering how long ago was it that u last saw her? and is it possible for u to conact her at all?
i dont know about the rest of u but i want 21's story to end with a happy ending, its just so sad
I know what you mean. That was kinda heartbreaking but touching at the same time.
Hi guys, it's 21
I just wanted to thank you for your kind words again. I just can't say it enough, it means that much to me to be able to share this with other people. Thank you for your concerns.
21, I'm seriously jealous of you. It must have been wonderful to have such a strong feeling that made you want to change yourself so much... if only she knew how much you did because of her. That was seriously touching.
I wish I could feel that as well.
Thank you >>42 for your nice comments
I thought for a long time about how to respond, but I honestly don't know what to say.
Self-improvment is masturbation
... is the little explosion at the end, and the resulting mess
You guys are getting creative now, hehe
I hope everyone is well
if we were well, we wouldn't be here
Well, I'm here again. It's 21.
Right now, it's around 4 AM on Monday, May 8th. My Junior year is coming closer and closer to an end. After the summer, I'll be a senior. Then after that, I'll be in college. My life seems to be moving in places that I never thought it would.
you are not alone! sometimes you just have to force yourself to move on. it's as simple and difficult as that
You should attempt to spend some time with her, if even for a day. Do you know what university she is studying at? When she may have a holiday? Obviously I don't know your situation inside and out, but a casual lunch with an 'old friend' is socially appropriate and not uncommon. You have previously expressed concern about topics of conversation (or lack thereof) -- this meeting could be important in that it is an opportunity to talk seriously with her about life, adulthood, etc. as you are both in transition periods.
I shouldn't have saged.
I'm back again, it's 21. I don't even know what this is anymore ... what turned into just sharing a story has turned into something that has completely consumed my life ... Maybe this is just a few posts written by a pathetic loser, but I'm fine with that. I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say anymore.
I know how it feels to be unable to be with someone who's changed your life so much. I handled it by realizing that she has her own life and I have mine. She brought me this far and it's up to me to keep on going. She can't carry me forever. I guess it made things easier to knowing that she recently got a boyfriend and is really happy.
>>21 The best advice I think I can give you is to look forward to future relationships. Don't stop taking care of yourself physically, but at the same time don't feel bad if you slip a little and gain some weight (I have!). Your image is very important to your social life, and you should think of it as important. I'm not meaning to sound shallow or anything, but you should always strive to look your best. It's only healthy!
i commented on your blogspot! ^^"
It's nice to see that I'm not the only one who's life has been changed by an amazing girl.
BANZAI 21!! BANZAIIII!!!!
Your past relationships, even if they aren't "the one" that lasts forever, still help determine who you can be, relationship wise. Take something from each relationship and make yourself better for it. But there's no use dwelling on a relationship that's gone.
That was inspiring. Very touching. Like >>57 said you need to look forward to future relationships. You may still feel it know, since it doesn't seem to be that long ago, but sooner or later your going to overcome this mild depression and end up picking yourself up again. Start with baby steps like keep a steady work out so you can feel refreshed after you do a couple reps. A well balanced diet is also good. Keep away from the fatty foods can also bring your spirits up.
>>1, don't ask how I know this, but there is a Japanese AV which actually depicts what you described. -_-''
posted in wrong thread...apologies.
I don't know how many of you have read the blog called KoreaLife, but it was by a pretty well known and beloved blogger named Shawn who commited suicide recently. I loved reading his blog, but I couldn't believe what I read about his death: http://chinavlog.typepad.com/china_video_blog/2006/05/shawns_final_st.html
Good luck 21, good luck.
I forgot all about this board, this thread, and that Blogspot post. I dug it up today because I wanted to let everyone know that with the advent of Facebook, I finally got back in touch with her. So much has changed.
Just read your story, and wow, it was really amazing. I'm going into grade 12 without ever being in a relationship or feeling love for anybody, but after reading your experiences it really makes me want to find somebody to change my boring lifestyle, like you did.
Oh hey, I remember that story. That poor gu-
>And now we're engaged.
69, it's a long story. Like, I said a lot has changed about me, my life, my perspective, just everything has changed. We reconnected over Facebook which was the start of it all. I hate to say this after going back and reading everything I wrote, but she really ... well, let's just say I realized my mental idea her was very different from reality. But still, it all worked out for me.
>my mental idea of her was very different from reality.
Heh, saw that coming a mile away. This is usually the case.