Okay, so. I'm a 17 year old female and I've been single for about two months now. That's fine and dandy with me, especially since my ex started turning into some retarded half-jerk. The only thing is, for a while I've been having this strong feeling of loneliness. I thought leaving the guy, since communication was dying out (it was an online relationship-- but we met once), would kinda fix things a little. Y'know, meet new people, find someone better. But it hasn't really. The loneliness just gets worse. I'm rather shy around new people, so I don't make many friends easily and even online I seem to, surprisingly, be having trouble meeting new people. But, yeah. I guess things wouldn't be too bad if not for one thing...
>So you'd think knowing he has someone, the love for him would die down
Actually. that doesn't really follow. Oftentimes, the ones we can't seem to get also generate the strongest feelings.
So whats the story about you and your ex?
Wow.. I wrote too much to fit in one post. Eheh.
I've actually told him about my feelings... three times now. I guess it's gone from vague to a little more clear since the previous two time he actually forgot I ever told him (he actually said "How come you never told me you liked me?" come the third time). He's always said stuff like "you'll find someone better than me" and the last time finally said he didn't like me like that. As far as I can tell, he's never seemed uncomfortable around me afterwards so I dunno if there'd be a strain.. at least not for him.
Alright. You wanna know about me and my ex? 'Kay!
So I met him through my first boyfriend (yet again, another online thing) back when I was in 7th or 8th grade. Back then, he was a really great guy to chat with. A hell of a lot nicer than my first boyfriend. But after some stuff happened, I stopped talking to my first ex and to him for like... two years.
You have choosen lifestyle poorly for a serious relationship, obviously. What do you want most, your lifestyle, or a relationship that fullfills your needs? I believe you cannot have both. I also believe you need to change before you can find someone suiting.
Become an hero.