Well, after having a big fight nearly five months ago, she and I began talking again. It was rough at first, but after a few days it was just like it was before, talking on the phone all night, sometimes falling asleep on it. It was great. We weren't 'together,' but all the signs were there that she was just as interested as I was to try it again.
After about two weeks, however, she decided to tell me that she had gotten a new boyfriend about a week before we started talking again. Needless to say I was devastated. Against better judgment, I decided to continue talking to her, as she still told me things like "I love you," and I stupidly said "I'll wait for you."
Earlier today we were supposed to spend the day together going shopping. I had been looking forward to it all week. She and I were joking about how we would spend all day and night catching up, just the two of us. We had been talking all day on the phone and online, but after waiting 'til nearly 'til 4pm, she decided to let me know that she ran out of time and couldn't go shopping tonight..... because she had a date with her boyfriend that she neglected to tell me.
I don't know. Logic tells me to just say screw it and move on, yet every time I do she gets upset or sad. I want to be her friend for sure even if I can't be with her, but it's like when I hint that I only want to be friends and won't 'fight for her love,' she gets mad. Is it me? Or does she just want it both ways? I'm really confused...